In the jungle?!

How old were you when you started to think about how your own family would be like?

Well, I couldn't exactly remember when but I know for sure it was way back when I was young hehe...

When I have my own kids (this was a long time ago), I'd actually thought to whisk away all my children and go build a treehouse in the jungle (HAHAHA).

Sebab apa aku nak wat cmnie?

Tengokla ap yang semakin menjadi2 di dunia ni. takutnya kalau kita x boleh nak mendidik anak2 kita dengan baik dan akhirnya, mereka menjadi rakan-rakan syaitan. Na'uzubillah...I'm scared if I fail to raise my kids properly, fail to lead them to Allah. I am very thankful for having the chance to be raised in a wonderful family. Memang betulla, 'anak itu ibarat kain putih dan ibu bapa yang mencorakkannya.'

Parents do play the biggest role in shaping their child, whether they would turn good or even bad. However, we can't simply turn a blind eye to the external factors: friends, internet, etc...

I thought at that time (back when I was small, that is) the simplest way to avoid my child from having negative influences is to bring them to a place where there would be nobody else around, just us. A treehouse would be perfect. just like the one in george of the jungle. ooo best2. Maybe once in a while I could bring them to the city...

If george can raise a family in the jungle why can't I?

Ok..back to reality NABILA!

aku rasa susah la kalo nak totally avoid the whole world. And akan jadi ssh kalo nak ajar anak2 sorg sbb brape sgtlah ilmu yang kita ada berbanding dengan ustaz dan ustazah, kalo x pun org yang dah ad banyak ilmu dr kita yg seciput nie..

so, whatever diffiiculties that comes in my way now n in the future, I pray that Allah gives me strength to do my best in overcumin the hurdles in life insyaAllah

Fave Quote of the Day

Tawakkul: Make Du'a, Do your best, And leave the Rest To Allah.

The meaning of tawakkal.

Manusia nie selalu lupa untuk bertawakkal.

Once you're finished with something (lets say ur exam) we always spend the time after that enjoying ourselves to the fullest.

Allah is forgotten for a while, Our prayers are cut short just so we can spend more time watching tv, going out to the mall etc...

Tawakkal means once we've doin sumthing to the fullest, we pray for the best.

Pray

Pray

Pray

O Allah, I've done my best. Now, I pray to You to give what is the best for me

Where is ME

I am in a quest. A search for myself.

And in this search, I am also trying to find Him.

Allah..Itsbeen a while since I've read Your letters to me. This heart is longed for You. I need to beg for Your forgiveness.

The sins I've committed, are uncountable. To compare it to the droplets of water in the sea, my sins are much more.

Sifat Manusia yang Allah benci

Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mengapa kamu mengatakan sesuatu yang tidak kamu kerjakan?

(Itu) sangatlah dibenci di sisi Allah sekiranya kamu mengatakan sesuatu yang tidak kamu kerjakan.

(61:2-61:3)

From my earlier post, I said that iman turun naik tapi saya harus membuat sesuatu dan tidak hanya membiarkan iman saya terus menjunam lebih teruk lagi.

I think I have to be constantly reminded all the time on this particular issue.

Tidakkah ayat di atas ini satu amaran daripada Allah? Saying things but you yourself not doing it is a horrible thing to do. But I couldn't lie to myself how many times I have done that.

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman..." This is without doubt a hard thing to do as I am always doing something wrong but that doesn't mean I have to stop myself from trying. At the very least, I have an effort in trying to become one. Whether I will or will not, it all depends on Allah. But Nabila, have you tried hard enough? Or it is just like melepaskan batuk di tangga? When you get to the middle of the journey, you always stop and rest for a long time, when actually what you have to do is go on.

"Mengapa kamu mengatakan sesuatu yang tidak kamu kerjakan?" Perghh..this verse is like a a stab through the heart. Allah is always giving me signs and giving me the end of the rope to grab on and come back to Him. Have I even tried to take it? Even if I did, I think it always slips. I am not hanging on to it tightly enough. What made you do that then? It seems like what the love letters you've read over and over again enters your right ear and exit through your left ear. It never stays in your heart. How many black spots do you think covering your heart now? Is the numbers growing?

"itu sangatlah DIBENCI di sisi Allah..." Ok. Allah didn't use the word 'tidak menyukai' or other words that are softer. This is HATE. So, it really does mean Allah hate this attitude of human. We are like travellers, only stopping in 'Dunia' to pack for an even longer journey ahead. And throughout our time at this pit-stop, we are supposed to seek 'redha Allah'. The worst thing that could happen is we get the opposite of His redha. Nabila, nabila. Please, you are not merely writing this down. You're the one writing all of this and remember, Allah tidak menyukai orang yang mengatakan sesuatu yang mereka tidak kerjakan. Always remember that.

PS: the itallic writing above besides the verse of Al-Quran are my conscience speaking out to me...

waduh2...cuti

cuti.

if i said dat cuti = iman turun ?

how many of u would agree?

hakikatnya, iman will go up and down.

BUT

it is still up to us whether we would do sumthin about it or not.

(this goes for me in particular)

After such a long time

Well, i've decided to get back to my blogging after such a long time..

My mum's recently came home after days at Sarawak for her work and God I've missed her so much. Now I know how it feels like living with a siblings and a single-father. You have to depend on ur grandma's cookings a lot when ur mum's not around! Good thing our kampung is quite near so with only a 30-minute drive, we have food!

It's always true that mums spend more on their kids rather than themselves. Well, my mum bought lots of stuff for each and everyone of us (this is not saying she has never done this before, only that its more this time). Our mum has a way of showing her affection towards us indirectly. Even though she wouldn't cuddle us and give us a kiss like our abah, I can clearly see her love. She doesn't have to show it in order for us to feel it. It's there, naturally and never been less than before.

Now I know for sure that it would be very hard indeed for me if I don't have my ummi. Though I have to admit there have been times before that I was so angry at my mum for such small things and I have acted wrongly towards her. You would never know the real me when I got mad at something unless you've heard or seen me in action. Trust me, you wouldn't want to. But, my mum didn't scold me back or hit me. She has this look in her eyes that could easily be interpreted as dissapointment, and when you get that look, you would wish that she'd hit you with a broom or something.

Enough with the past, coming back to the present...Tada! this is a VERY colourful bag which my mum has bought for me..hmm did you know I look even smaller when I'm carrying this bag as it is way past my knee when the strap is hanging on my shoulder..anyhoo, i'm still grateful. Syukran ya Ummi :D

I'm tired of thinking about it

Seriously, I dunno why my mind keeps wandering to that 'thing'

Its not even important

there are bigger things I need to worry about

You're doing IB. Now you really got BIGGER n BIGGER things to worry about.

When was the last time I've opened my tafsir?

I keep forgetting to remind myself constantly of the more important things. I'm too absorbed in this so-called 'world'

Am I going to be like this forever?

giving in to myself?