Car

I hit the side of the road with my mum's car today.
The front tyre is now flat. It was a new tyre, got changed 2 days ago!
I told my mum I didn't want to drive the car anymore before this because I'm tired of it. Maybe once I was all excited getting my driver's license plus I got to be a chauffeur for my mum every now and then. Those days are over.
After having to drive back and forth from my house to Alor Star to do my hospital attachment, it was tired. And I haven't even spend one hour on a rod in KL on my own!
I'm sorry mummy. I swear I'll pay for the damage.
It would be so easy if I took the car straight to repair and change the tyre before I told my mum about it. She's in KL right now f.y.i.
We're supposed to pick her up tonight using her car at the airport but now the car can't be used because of the flat tyre. And I was the cause of it.
I am praying that she would not scream at me because of the car. (not that she will but then she'll be angry alright)
It's not as if I'd hit anyone with it but then I was reckless.

Me + car = not a good combination right now

Live LIFE to the FULLEST

If you treasure the beauty
that shows all around you
and try to add some of your own,

Enjoy the companionship
others can give you
yet value your moments alone,

If you honor opinions
that differ from yours
yet stand up for what you believe,

Admire the accomplishments
others have made
and take pride in what you can achieve...

If you love those around you
and love yourself too,

If your spirit is eager and free...
then you know what it means
to live life to the fullest
and be the best 'you' you can be!

-Amanda Bradley-

A NOTE TO SELF

Lebih baik mata itu buta jika tidak menghargai keindahan dan ayat-ayat Allah s.w.t.

Lebih baik telinga itu pekak jika tidak mendengar nasihat-nasihat Allah s.w.t.

Lebih baik anggota badan itu mati jika tidak melaksanakan segala suruhan Allah s.w.t.

Barangsiapa mengaku empat perkara tanpa disertai dengan empat perkara yang lain, maka dia adalah pembohong.

1.Barangsiapa mengaku cinta syurga tetapi tidak beramal dengan ketaatan, maka dia adalah pembohong.

2.Barangsiapa yang mengaku cinta Rasulullah saw tetapi tidak cinta kepada ulama dan kaum faqir, maka dia adalah pembohong.

3.Barangsiapa yang mengaku takut pada neraka tetapi tidak meninggalkan maksiat, maka dia adalah pembohong.

4.Dan barangsiapa yang mengaku cinta kepada Allah swt tetapi berkeluh-kesah dari bala, maka dia adalah pembohong.

-Al-Imam Ghazali

Journey of a Lifetime Part II

9th Dec 2010

The girls didn't slept in the village with the boys. We were given a place ( a premise a.k.a a tuition centre) outside the village and woud you believe it, with air-conditioning!
I think I slept at 2 am last night with a room full of UIA students. it was kinda scary because we've never seen each other before the program yet here we were, sleeping in a cramped space together. But it was ok since they were nice and Kak Shifaa made me feel like i'm part of them. Oh and not to forget Sya who was also in the room with me. She'd wanted to sleep next to me but then I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow (although it was only a pile of clothes made into a pillow) that I didn't realised I had taken up a lot of space and there was no room for her... Sorry sya!

At 5 am, we were awaken by someone for qiyamullail. I rushed to the toilet first since there were only two toilets for nearly 30 people and I needed a shower! I couldn't be bothered to wait in the long queue last night so I slept first and shower later :D Honestly, I was only half awake during the qiyamullail prayers that I couldn't remember what I exactly did. Bad girl. This is what happened due to only hours of sleep. By 7 am, we were on our way back to the village for a start of a new day.

Poor caterers, they had to be at the village before 7 am to make breakfast for all of us. I forgot what the menu was but it was delicious yummy yummy. While they were making breakfast, the rest of us were doing aerobics. Qaiyyim, the leader of the activity, introduced the 'xi shua shua' dance. It was soooo cool!

After that, we had our second mahabbah visit. We were supposed to go to our family's house but mine weren't home as they have two house. The other one was across the road near the dock. The father told us he needed to keep an eye on the boat so, they had built another house near it. He is a fisherman and usually he would go to the harbour as early as 6 am and come home arounf 5 pm in the evening. Pak Cik Ali and Mak Cik Minah has 4 children (2 boys and 2 girls) altogether age ranging from 1 to 10 years old. And they have doggies!

During this time as well, we got our things together for 'gotong-royong' around the village! It was a great activity actually and I really enjoyed it. Here are some pictures of us (although there were a lot more posing for the pictures than actually working :D)

When that was over, we got ready for the big event of the day, sports day! The children were all excited like we were. There were many games that had been held during the day such as finding sweets in flour, passing a rubber band using straws and one involving water balloons! I also took part as the comittee group who compete in the race but of course we had to lose (for the sake of children) haha..

We continued the sports event until late in the evening for the children. At night, it was the adults' turn. I couldn't exactly remember what the games were as many of us were very tired from all the running during the sports day and handling the children as well.

But I can tell you I was wide awake during the post mortem that night. It was a hell of night alright. The one night I couldn't forget. Ever.

The head of commitee planned a birthday surpise for all of the December babies! But it was done in a very mean and horrible way! I actually thought I was in trouble! They actually got angry with me and I had to stand in front of everyone! How awful it was! As soon as they said it was for our birthday, I cried :'''( I couldn't take it first. It was mean!!! But then slowly, I regained conciousness of the whole situation and accepted that I've been pranked. It was still horrible though...But the two Secret Recipe cakes saved the day!

Journey of a Lifetime Part I

Assalamualaikum. I've been pushing myself to write about this entry for soo long since the day it happened. It has been one of the most memorable experience that left a big impact in my life. Hope that you all will have a time to read this :D

6th Dec 2010
Last day of SEM 1 EXAM! and its Maths. What a perfect subject. Somehow, it didn't felt like the last day of exam probably because of the humanitarian project that I'll be doing this week. Anyhow, I've made it through two weeks of exam. Next, the project! This will be the second big project for the Smiling Soul Club, a new club that was established this year by the juniors of M10E and M10F. The first project was a success and hopefully this one will be too!
At 6.00 pm, the bus of KMB made its way to UIA. This project is made with the collaboration of the UIA students. Upon arriving at UIA, we met with JASA members, a club that handles the project to do with Orang Asli. Our target is the Orang Asli at Pulau Indah, Klang. Our SOS members were divided into many bureaus and everyone seems to be looking forward to the whole project.

7th Dec 2010
Two days spent in UIA. It gave me a view on what's life would be like in a university. The worst part was we had to pay for our own meal where in KMB, the meals are always ready and we as a student only have to dig in. Imagine having to fork out nearly rm15 for one day on food! I am sooo glad to be one of the KMBians. Overall, I had a great time at UIA because the bulidings were all magnificent to look at! it all took my breath away seeing all the wonderful architecture...
Oh not to forget everyday we had to go to bed late at night to prepare for the journey to Pulau Indah and the activities that were going to be held there for the Orang Asli.


8th Dec 2010

The day we actually went to Pulau Indah, Klang. We got up early and got all of our things on the bus. We have planned to arrive at the place at 12 pm but was a bit late upon the arrival because of some technical problem with the bus. Since the bus cannot go into the village because the road was small, we had to unload evrything that we have brought with us and carried it by hands to the hall. Everyone helped with the carrying and it was a good sight seeing all hands helped. Once evrything is cleared, the catering bureau went straight to work and prepared our lunch while everyone else went for mahabbah visit. Mahabbah visit is where the KMB and UIA students each carried bags of clothes to be donated to every house in the village. The people there were all very friendly and welcomed everyone of us with open hands. The children were also excited to see many of us and almost immediately offered their help to show us the way around the village since it was our first time.
After zohor prayer, we had our lunch. We were told that the menu would not be the usual food we eat at home even at KMB, such as there would be no chicken and we have to bear with vegetables as well as salted fish for 4 days there. When you're hungry and there's not much choice on your plate, you don't really care what's on it, trust me. It was also very enjoyable sharing your food with others.
The module bureau had an ice breaking session with the children on Kampung Orang Asli Pulau Indah. The students introduced them to many songs. The children also made name tags for themselves and I could actually see their faces beaming with joy when they had made something on their own. They were proud of themselves. However, there were also a few who gave up all of a sudden even before trying to write something on their own. From this, I saw that they may have a low-self esteem and this could probably affect their learning particularly when they feel like this at such a young age.
At night, we had the opening ceremony with the villagers in the presence of Tok Batin. We've introduced the project and told about our aims of coming to the village. Each of the UIA and KMB students also has a 'family' of Orang Asli while staying there. This is really to create a closer bond with the villagers. I had two families but only got to know one. My brother and sister whom I share the family with are Azlan from KMB and Kak Atiqah from UIA.

Hate but Love

Everytime I'm home, I'm happy.That's normal right?
But at the same time, I feel scared. ashamed of myself. Why? Because I'm always lost in this godforsaken world of entertainment, being blinded by the loud musics, watching endless astro channels and lots more.
I hate it but I didn't stop myself from enjoying it.
A sister at the usrah once advised us not to just continue what we do in kmb only in kmb, but to keep our iman stronger once we're outside kmb. That's my biggest problem. There's no doubt that our iman will always has its ups and downs but its our responsibility not to let it go down too much and to control our iman.
It is hard for me. My prayer gets distracted, my remembrance of Allah is fading away little by little. The time I spent reading God's love letters becoming less and less.
And my mind, OMG, is thinking of stupid stupid things that makes me feel like I'm not that different than those people who does immoral things. I hate it.