Hati yang kering kontang

hav u ever done something, but without any excitement in doing it?
hmmm...DI sekarang mngalami situasi sebegini. semangat je bila jumpa org tu, org nie. cerita x penah habis. pastu, pegi bilik kawan tu, kawan nie.
suka.
but when everyone else is busy getting themselves closer to Him, where am I?
I was there too, doing what everyone else was doing.
solat, evrything that should have made me feel like He is with me. whom I can tell everything to, whom I can go to whenever evrybody else is not around for me.
sadly, hati nie rasa kering. mcm kena kemarau. langsung x feel connection. dah la kalau nak contact Dia, xperlu pon byr pape ke. free of charge but then, we somehow chose someone else other than Him.
bila buat sesuatu yg xde feel, sangat3 lah x best.

dulu, sblum pindah bilik n jauh drpd akhawat2, selalu je g mkn sorg2 kt ds, g kelas ke. nearly evrything i did by myself. but it made me feel I have Him with me. I always took the time to share with Him. "Takpe, org lain xde, aku ada Dia." so, cakap je la pape pun, I know He's listening.
rindu.

bila dah ada ramai kwn2 di sisi, DI dah xnmpak Dia. sdgkn yang xpenah tidur adalah Dia and He who watches over us Day and Night.
Teringat hari nak balik kmb aritu, naik bas. mlm. apa2 je boleh jadi. tapi xtau kenapa, hati rsa xsdp. ditambah lagi dgn mother ckp, "asl la x balik ngn flight.." hoho...apa lagi, hati dh lain macam. is something going to happen? tp boleh pulak ats bas tido dr awl perjalanan smpai la putrajaya, alhamdulillah. Boleh je Allah nak bg dugaan apa2 but instead, He kept me safe all the way sampai mcm x pecaya dh safely arrived. mmg Hebat ah Allah. The Best. syukur!

It is Him that has been with me from the beginning until now. and always will. when everyone else forgets me, He still sends His love in evry way u can think of.
Dia sangat3 rindu kita. DI sangat3 rindu Dia.
hmm...bila setiap kali bgn tido, nak igt Dia. no one else. nak say Thank You for giving me another chance to correct what i hav done wrong. n nak bgn sambil senyum :)

Pray that my heart will always melt when I remember Him and read His love letters...