break

DI sangat2 rindu kt akak2 yg sekarang tgh bertungkus lumus menggalas tnggungjawab, melakukan sunnah terbesar Rasulullah..
semalam, xtau kenapa tp rsa nak nangis. but don't know who d right person was for me to cry on. mayb sisters, mayb usrahmate yg comel2, myb my classmates.
but even to my surprise, DI ternangis kt bahu murabbi DI :') bila org cakap kita nie berukhuwah kerana Allah, dengan org yg kita xrapat or xtau pun background dia sgt compared to our bestfriends whom we have known all our lives pun boleh menjadi tempat mengadu yang sgt best.

why I feel sad? because as a human being, i can never escape from doing sins. ad je masa DI rasa, this is not for me. why can't I be like everyone else in the world with the title 'Muslim' who just focuses on her or himself? Jalan ini sangat panjang. panjang sampai xtahu mampu ke DI utk tsabat dlm jalan ni.
Kadang2 rasa nak take a break.

boleh ke?

kalau letak tangan atas lilin yg menyala pun xmampu, inikan pula kalau kena roast alive mcm Ka'ab b Malik, Sahabat yang sgt hebat, yang seriously, all his heart and soul is for Allah. only for the Ultimate One.

nie nak jalan yang senang. sedangkan Rasulullah kena baling batu bertubi-tubi sampai kaki berdarah dlm kasut, kita nie semua org dh Islam dh pun, cuma nak bawak diorg closer to Allah je. fill their hearts with His love, the infinite love. not the sort of love we all looking for right now in this dunia.

medan kita nie jauh lebih senang. memang, ad je masa kita rsa 'enough is enough.' tapi, rasakan lah, ad je hands  kat blakang kita yg push us back up bila mana kita tersadai. pelukan diorg, tangisan diorg, just a smile from them is enough to remind me that this is the right one. the right path. the journey i wanna be on. so that i'll be able to say, "yes, its true i stumbled along the way. not once, nor twice.but dozens of times. but You still love me. You helped me find my way back."

rugi x kita kalau kita nak jadi golongan minoriti? bila kita nak jadi org yg biasa2 je? yg xnak pun buat apa yg Allah suruh, just buat sekadar yg wajib je? padahal,

"apa yang ada di langit dan di bumi bertasbih kepada Allah..."

(61:1)

the whole universe is praising Him, making Him the ultimate goal in this life. xnak ke kita jadi dalam kalangan yang Allah sayang sgt2, cinta sgt2, rindu sgt2? 

Dia sangat cinta kat kita nie, yang slalu je buat dosa, yang selalu doubt Dia. when we say we have faith in Him, do we? do we trust Him with our lives? 

do I? 

sayangnye DI selalu xperasan benda tu. cari jauh2 sedangkan Dia ad je selalu. xpernah walau sesaat pun xtgk kita.