Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Just stop it

I don't usually let out my anger (except when I'm having one of my 'moods') but I just lashed out at someone just now, let it all out. I mean ALL
I am so fed up with everyone who keeps making fun of me. Fine, if its just for fun but there's a limit. And when you've crossed that line, you'll be VERY sorry.
Although I'm the type of person who gets mad quite easily but I forget it ever happens to me very quickly too. I know its stupid but sometimes I just wished that I could stay mad at someone longer than I usually does. You know why? Because I'm tired.Yes, I'm tired of being the one who always have to put everyone else's first before me, constantly thinking of making someone feel better when the one who I really should care about is me. It is kind of selfish. But it is? Just for a second, a millisecond maybe, just think about my feelings.
I am so bloody tired. Tired of being nice and pretend what they're saying doesn't hurt me one little bit when it's eating me inside.
When you think making fun of someone in front of them doesn't bother them, well sometimes you're wrong. Totally wrong.
I'm sick of it. Just stop. Don't let me hate you all.
Siapa yang makan cili dia yang terasa pedas. and one more, think before you say something because it might be the last time you'd ever talk to me.