Wednesday, February 24, 2010

If I Love Someone

I am lying if I say I have never loved anyone.Yet I don't think I have ever loved anyone. Because I believe you will truly love someone once you love Allah. Once you love someone for the sake of Allah, you have achieve the greatest love of all and InsyaAllah your life with him will be a blissful one..

YA ALLAH
if I fall in love,
Let me fall for someone who
never gets tired of remembering You

YA ALLAH
if i love someone,
do not let me love him more
than I cherish You

YA ALLAH
If I miss someone,
let me miss the one who
always sujud..only to you

YA ALLAH
if I were to be with someone,
Let me be with him who practices
your religion, follow the Sunnah

YA ALLAH
if I am destined to be with someone,
make my journey to your heaven
with him as my guide

Right till now, I don't think I am able to have this feeling inside me. I don't think I am strong enough to handle Love to a man when I am still searching for His love..

Can you believe it for my entire life I have never clapped both hands. I guess I am lucky haha..
Anyway, I heard a saying once
"Jika kamu menyukai seseorang dan hanya kamu dan Allah sahaja yang mengetahuinya, maka kamu sedang berjihad"
I don't really know whether that is true or not though.
So far, no one has been the one for me yet.Hey, I'm only eighteen and if Allah willing,I have a lot more ahead of me. My goal right now is pursuing my dream in Medicine. InsyaAllah I am on my way to become a qualified doctor.

Dr. Nabila Rosaidi (a girl can make a dream come true!)


Sunday, February 21, 2010

Looking back

I have been meaning to write this post for a long time but somehow I thought I did the same thing once so I can't really blame them. However, the past is the past and what is more important is the present.
Going back through the long years I have been living, I can say that I am not the same person as I was five to six years ago. I lived for several years in UK. Those wonderful years I have spent did leave me with some amazing experience (friends, schools, environment around you) but there was one thing I regretted the most.
Being a teenager back then, I didn't have much faith.I didn't care much about my religion.Of course I am a Muslim.Yes, I did wear my headscarf since I was seven. When people says "you're westernized" oh yeah it can happen alright and it is never impossible especially as a teenager living overseas, you can be easily influenced by the western culture.You started to see how they wear their clothes, the style and it doesn't take too much time before you started copying them. And I wasn't excluded from experiencing these things.
I am ashamed to tell that there was time when I didn't wear my headscarf.Mostly during P.E (Malay-PJ).During this period, we usually had to combine classes and I remembered one girl from Pakistan I think whom I talked to seldomly because she couldn't communicate in English very well. She never took off her headscarf even when we're doing P.E.Why didn't I follow her? Why did I have the slightest intention to show my hair?I didn't think it was important at that time though I knew my parents would go nuts if they saw me like that. Stupid! I now realise that Pakistani girl was proud to wear her headscarf.And I should have to.Mind you, my friends didn't tell me to show off my hair,no. They knew about it and they respect Islam. Why didn't I show them the good in Islam through my actions?Why did I disobey the most important thing as a muslimah?
I looked back now and I knew my decision to come back to my homeland was the right one.I was so close to stay back in Exeter and finished off my GCSE but I didn't. Although I missed my life over there, I never would have traded it for my life now. To me, I think Allah has given me the chance to travel on the right path. I would have never regain and strengthen my beliefs if I stayed in UK.
Alhamdulillah I got accepted in MSJC Taiping after scoring straight A's in PMR and through that achievement I have found something that is worth living for.Something that has made me who I am today. I have found the real Islam and the true joy of being a muslim.
I am lucky to have been given such opportunity to learn about so many new things I never knew about Islam.
Allah Maha Pengampun dan Maha Mengasihani my friends. It is never to late to ask for His forgiveness. And always remember we as human can never escape from making a mistake and that is why if you can repent every night for the things you did wrong during the day or any other time, do it. Jangan bertangguh. Only Allah knows if today would be the last time we'd ever breathe in the air..

22 Against One

Sebuah cerita yang menarik.. Ada seorang pemuda arab yang baru saja menyelesaikan bangku kuliahnya di Amerika. Pemuda ini adalah salah seorang yang diberi nikmat oleh Allah berupa pendidikan agama Islam bahkan ia mampu mendalaminya. Selain belajar, ia juga seorang juru dakwah Islam. Ketika berada di Amerika, ia berkenalan dengan salah seorang Nasrani. Hubungan mereka semakin akrab, dengan harapan semoga Allah SWT memberinya hidayah masuk Islam.

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Pada suatu hari mereka berdua berjalan-jalan di sebuah perkampungan di Amerika dan melintas di dekat sebuah gereja yang terdapat di kampong tersebut. Temannya itu meminta agar ia turut masuk ke dalam gereja. Mula mula ia keberatan, namun karena desakan akhirnya pemuda itu pun memenuhi permintaannya lalu ikut masuk ke dalam gereja dan duduk di salah satu bangku dengan hening, sebagaimana kebiasaan mereka. Ketika pendeta masuk, mereka serentak berdiri untuk memberikan penghormatan lantas kembali duduk.

Di saat itu, si pendeta agak terbeliak ketika melihat kepada para hadirin dan berkata, "Di tengah kita ada seorang muslim. Aku harap ia keluar dari sini." Pemuda arab itu tidak bergerak dari tempatnya. Pendeta tersebut mengucapkan perkataan itu berkali-kali, namun ia tetap tidak bergerak dari tempatnya. Hingga akhirnya pendeta itu berkata, "Aku minta ia keluar dari sini dan aku menjamin keselamatannya. " Barulah pemuda ini beranjak keluar.

Di ambang pintu, pemuda bertanya kepada sang pendeta, "Bagaimana anda tahu bahwa saya seorang muslim." Pendeta itu menjawab, "Dari tanda yang terdapat di wajahmu." Kemudian ia beranjak hendak keluar. Namun, pendeta ingin memanfaatkan keberadaan pemuda ini dengan mengajukan beberapa pertanyaan, tujuannya untuk memalukan pemuda tersebut dan sekaligus mengukuhkan ugamanya. Pemuda muslim itupun menerima tentangan debat tersebut.

Pendeta berkata, "Aku akan mengajukan kepada anda 22 pertanyaan dan anda harus menjawabnya dengan tepat."Si pemuda tersenyum dan berkata, "Silakan! Sang pendeta pun mulai bertanya, "

  1. Sebutkan satu yang tiada duanya,
  2. dua yang tiada tiganya,
  3. tiga yang tiada empatnya,
  4. empat yang tiada limanya,
  5. lima yang tiada enamnya,
  6. enam yang tiada tujuhnya,
  7. tujuh yang tiada delapannya,
  8. delapan yang tiada sembilannya,
  9. sembilan yang tiada sepuluhnya,
  10. sesuatu yang tidak lebih dari sepuluh,
  11. sebelas yang tiada dua belasnya,
  12. dua belas yang tiada tiga belasnya,
  13. tiga belas yang tiada empat belasnya.
  14. Sebutkan sesuatu yang dapat bernafas namun tidak mempunyai ruh!
  15. Apa yang dimaksud dengan kuburan berjalan membawa isinya?
  16. Siapakah yang berdusta namun masuk ke dalam surga?
  17. Sebutkan sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah namun Dia tidak menyukainya?
  18. Sebutkan sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah dengan tanpa ayah dan ibu!
  19. Siapakah yang tercipta dari api, siapakah yang diadzab dengan api dan siapakah yang terpelihara dari api?
  20. Siapakah yang tercipta dari batu, siapakah yang diadzab dengan batu dan siapakah yang terpelihara dari batu?
  21. Sebutkan sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah dan dianggap besar!
  22. Pohon apakah yang mempunyai 12 ranting, setiap ranting mempunyai 30 daun, setiap daun mempunyai 5 buah, 3 di bawah naungan dan dua di bawah sinaran matahari?"

Mendengar pertanyaan tersebut, pemuda itu tersenyum dengan keyakinan kepada Allah. Setelah membaca basmalah ia berkata,

  1. Satu yang tiada duanya ialah Allah SWT.
  2. Dua yang tiada tiganya ialah Malam dan Siang. Allah SWT berfirman, "Dan Kami jadikan malam dan siang sebagai dua tanda (kebesaran kami)." (Al-Isra': 12).
  3. Tiga yang tiada empatnya adalah kesilapan yang dilakukan Nabi Musa ketika Khidir menenggelamkan sampan, membunuh seorang anak kecil dan ketika menegakkan kembali dinding yang hampir roboh.
  4. Empat yang tiada limanya adalah Taurat, Injil, Zabur dan al-Qur'an.
  5. Lima yang tiada enamnya ialah Solat lima waktu.
  6. Enam yang tiada tujuhnya ialah jumlah Hari ketika Allah SWT menciptakan makhluk.
  7. Tujuh yang tiada delapannya ialah Langit yang tujuh lapis. Allah SWT berfirman, "Yang telah menciptakan tujuh langit berlapis-lapis. Kamu sekali-kali tidak melihat pada ciptaan Rabb Yang Maha Pemurah sesuatu yang tidak seimbang." (Al-Mulk: 3).
  8. Delapan yang tiada sembilannya ialah Malaikat pemikul Arsy ar-Rahman. Allah SWT berfirman, "Dan malaikat-malaikat berada di penjuru-penjuru langit. Dan pada hari itu delapan orang malaikat men-junjung 'Arsy Rabbmu di atas (kepala) mereka." (Al-Haqah: 17).
  9. Sembilan yang tiada sepuluhnya adalah mu'jizat yang diberikan kepada Nabi Musa yaitu: tongkat, tangan yang bercahaya, angin topan, musim paceklik, katak, darah, kutu dan belalang. Dan bukti-bukti itu ialah angin taufan, belalang, kutu, katak, darah, tongkat, tangan, belah laut, memayungi mereka dengan awan, al-man, al-salwa, batu hingga yang lain daripada tanda kekuasaan Allah yang mereka saksikannya.
  10. Sesuatu yang tidak lebih dari sepuluh ialah Kebaikan. Allah SWT berfirman, "Barang siapa yang berbuat kebaikan maka untuknya sepuluh kali lipat." (Al-An'am: 160).
  11. Sebelas yang tiada dua belasnya ialah jumlah Saudara-Saudara Nabi Yusuf.
  12. Dua belas yang tiada tiga belasnya ialah Mu'jizat Nabi Musa yang terdapat dalam firman Allah, "Dan (ingatlah) ketika Musa memohon air untuk kaumnya, lalu Kami berfirman, 'Pukullah batu itu dengan tongkatmu.' Lalu memancarlah daripadanya dua belas mata air." (Al-Baqarah: 60).
  13. Tiga belas yang tiada empat belasnya ialah jumlah Saudara Nabi Yusuf ditambah dengan ayah dan ibunya.
  14. Adapun sesuatu yang bernafas namun tidak mempunyai ruh adalah waktu Subuh. Allah SWT ber-firman, "Dan waktu subuh apabila fajarnya mulai menyingsing." (At-Takwir: 18).
  15. Kuburan yang membawa isinya adalah Ikan yang menelan Nabi Yunus AS.
  16. Mereka yang berdusta namun masuk ke dalam surga adalah saudara-saudara Nabi Yusuf , yakni ketika mereka berkata kepada ayahnya, "Wahai ayah kami, sesungguhnya kami pergi berlumba-lumba dan kami tinggalkan Yusuf di dekat barang-barang kami, lalu dia dimakan serigala." Setelah kedustaan terungkap, Yusuf berkata kepada mereka, " tak ada cercaan terhadap kamu semua." Dan ayah mereka Ya'qub berkata, "Aku akan memohonkan ampun bagimu kepada Rabbku. Sesungguhnya Dia-lah Yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang." (Yusuf:98)
  17. Sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah namun tidak Dia sukai adalah suara Keledai. Allah SWT berfirman, "Sesungguhnya sejelek-jelek suara adalah suara keledai." (Luqman: 19).
  18. Makhluk yang diciptakan Allah tanpa bapa dan ibu adalah Nabi Adam, Malaikat, Unta Nabi Shalih dan Kambing Nabi Ibrahim.
  19. Makhluk yang diciptakan dari api adalah Iblis, yang diadzab dengan api ialah Abu Jahal dan yang terpelihara dari api adalah Nabi Ibrahim. Allah SWT berfirman, "Wahai api dinginlah dan selamatkan Ibrahim." (Al-Anbiya':69).
  20. Makhluk yang terbuat dari batu adalah Unta Nabi Shalih, yang diadzab dengan batu adalah tentera bergajah dan yang terpelihara dari batu adalah Ash-habul Kahfi (penghuni gua).
  21. Sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah dan dianggap perkara besar adalah Tipu Daya wanita, sebagaimana firman Allah SWT "Sesungguhnya tipu daya kaum wanita itu sangatlah besar." (Yusuf: 28).
  22. Adapun pohon yang memiliki 12 ranting setiap ranting mempunyai 30 daun, setiap daun mempunyai 5 buah, 3 di bawah teduhan dan dua di bawah sinaran matahari maknanya: Pohon adalah Tahun, Ranting adalah Bulan, Daun adalah Hari dan Buahnya adalah Solat yang lima waktu, Tiga dikerjakan di malam hari dan Dua di siang hari.

Pendeta dan para hadirin merasa takjub mendengar jawapan pemuda muslim tersebut. Kemudian ia pun mula hendak pergi. Namun ia mengurungkan niatnya dan meminta kepada pendeta agar menjawab satu pertanyaan saja. Permintaan ini disetujui oleh pendeta.

Pemuda ini berkata,
"Apakah kunci surga itu?"

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Mendengar pertanyaan itu lidah pendeta menjadi kelu, hatinya diselimuti keraguan dan rupa wajahnya pun berubah. Ia berusaha menyembunyikan kekuatirannya, namun tidak berhasil. Orang-orang yang hadir di gereja itu terus mendesaknya agar menjawab pertanyaan tersebut, namun ia cuba mengelak. Mereka berkata, "Anda telah melontarkan 22 pertanyaan kepadanya dan semuanya ia jawab, sementara ia hanya memberi cuma satu pertanyaan namun anda tidak mampu menjawabnya!"

Pendeta tersebut berkata, "Sesungguh aku tahu jawapan nya, namun aku takut kalian marah." Mereka menjawab, "Kami akan jamin keselamatan anda." Pendeta pun berkata, "Jawabannya ialah:

Asyhadu An La Ilaha Illallah Wa Aasyhadu Anna Muhammadar Rasulullah."

Lantas pendeta dan orang-orang yang hadir di gereja itu terus memeluk agama Islam. Sungguh Allah telah menganugerahkan kebaikan dan menjaga mereka dengan Islam melalui tangan seorang pemuda muslim yang bertakwa.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

You Need Two Hands to Clap

Lets say that you're in love with someone. Of course you're wishing like hell that he would love you back. You are willing to give everything you have to him just so that he replies your love letters..You filled his school locker with gorgeous and expensive gifts only to have him enjoying the free presents, not trying to find or even care about the sender. Would your heart be broken to pieces finding out the person you cherished the most doesn't know you even existed?
Now, lets look it through another perspective. You and The Almighty. He is The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful. He loves every living creature in this world but how many of us repay His love by doing what He wants you to?How many?
Truthfully, I didn't care that much either about all of this when I was younger.But then as I get older I see that His Love is the most powerful of all and to me if I can't earn His love, I am not yet ready to learn to love someone. There is nothing that can outstand His Love towards us. Ya Allah, let me be close to You and remember You every single day that I am going through.
Just like my fellow blogger, I agree that we always ask what we want but do we give anything in return? Even if we perform all the ibadah, is it out of Love? We pray five times a day but did we remember him throughout the prayers? Or does the mind wander off someplace else? Yes it is hard to be khusyuk when doing ibadah and I am sad to say that I too have this problem.
Return His Love out of the goodness in your heart. You love Him and He will always loves you more. When you have two hands, you clap and it makes a sound.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Spoilt Brat


You know, being the eldest always means you have to sacrifice.Doesn't matter if it's a toy, something you wanted to buy it usually meant to be given up to your other siblings. I remembered once my brother and sisters got to buy things they'd like but my parents were like "you can't have that.give chance to your siblings.You're the eldest."
I can tell you I did get sick of those words-you're the eldest. whatever it is, the others' needs come first. I just have to wait till I can get what I want.
As I get older, it became a part of me to watch over my younger sisters,if they fall I would be the cushion. If they want something, I would get it for them. Being the eldest is not easy believe me. Especially if you have lots of bros and sis to take care of. I salute those who have a family the size of a football team.
Since I'm staying at home during this holiday till the exam results come out, I got the chance to be the only child while the others went to school. During the short hours I spent at home with my mum especially, I'd got the chance to strengthen the bond between a mother and daughter. And I loved every second of it.
A few days ago when I was accompanying my parents to Alor Setar, I noticed something different. Usually when I said I want something or I want to buy this or that, they were usually reluctant to follow my needs. But that day amazingly, they were like ok-you decide we follow. I know to most of you out there these things are normal but not for me. I don't usually get this kind of 'special' treatment. To my surprise, I didn't like it. I know I have wanted their attention for so long but when I finally got it, it seemed unfair. Unfair to my other siblings even if they weren't there. I am used to be the one who stand back and let them be the first to get everything and when it came to me, the opportunity to be what I always wanted, to have what I always dreamed of having, I felt it wasn't mine to have. It isn't right.
I like to have been a spoilt little child for some time but not anymore. I guess it's a part of me that I've grown out of. Being an older sister isn't such a bad idea. For one thing, I did get my parents all to myself for almost more than 3 years before my brother came to this world. Maybe I didn't remeber those moments alone with my parents but what is important, I know they love me all the same. Every child is special in their own amazing way and it's normal to feel like an outsider in your family once in a while but your parents never want to replace you for anyone else, even if they're better than you in any way.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Keistimewaan sebagai seorang WANITA

Salam, today I was just going trough the articles in ILuvIslam and I thought this one could be interesting especially for us girls.

19 Hadis nabi mengenai wanita.

1. Doa perempuan lebih makbul daripada lelaki kerana sifat penyayang yang lebih kuat daripada lelaki. Ketika ditanya kepada Rasulullah akan hal tersebut, jawab baginda, "Ibu lebih penyayang daripada bapa dan doa orang yang penyayang tidak akan sia-sia".

2. Apabila seseorang perempuan mengandung janin dalam rahimnya, maka beristighfarlah para malaikat untuknya. Allah mencatatkan baginya setiap hari dengan 1,000 kebajikan dan menghapuskan darinya 1,000 kejahatan.

3. Apabila seseorang perempuan mulai sakit hendak bersalin, maka Allah mencatatkan baginya pahala orang yang berjihad pada jalan Allah.

4. Apabila seseorang perempuan melahirkan anak, keluarlah dia dari dosa-dosa seperti keadaan ibunya melahirkannya.

5. Apabila telah lahir anak lalu disusui, maka bagi ibu itu setiap satu tegukan daripada susunya diberi satu kebajikan.

6. Apabila semalaman ibu tidak tidur dan memelihara anaknya yang sakit, maka Allah memberinya pahala seperti memerdekakan 70 hamba dengan ikhlas untuk membela agama Allah.

7. Barangsiapa yang menggembirakan anak perempuannya, darjatnya seumpama orang yang sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah dan orang yang takutkan Allah, akan diharamkan api neraka ke atas tubuhnya.

8. Barangsiapa membawa hadiah, (barang makanan dari pasar ke rumah) lalu diberikan kepada keluarganya, maka pahalanya seperti bersedekah. Hendaklah mendahulukan anak perempuan daripada anak lelaki. Maka barangsiapa yang menyukakan anak perempuan seolah-olah dia memerdekakan anak Nabi Ismail.

9. Tiap perempuan yang menolong suaminya dalam urusan agama, maka Allah memasukkan dia ke dalam syurga lebih dahulu daripada suaminya (10,000 tahun).

10. Perempuan apabila sembahyang lima waktu, puasa bulan Ramadhan, memelihara kehormatannya serta taat akan suaminya, masuklah dia dari pintu syurga mana sahaja yang dikehendaki.

11. Wanita yang solehah (baik) itu lebih baik daripada 1,000 lelaki yang soleh.

12. Aisyah berkata, "Aku bertanya kepada Rasulullah, siapakah yang lebih besar haknya terhadap wanita? Jawab Rasulullah, "Suaminya. "Siapa pula berhak terhadap lelaki?" Jawab Rasulullah, "Ibunya".

13. Apabila memanggil akan engkau dua orang ibubapamu, maka jawablah panggilan ibumu dahulu.

14. Wanita yang taat akan suaminya, semua ikan-ikan di laut, burung di udara, malaikat di langit, matahari dan bulan semua beristighfar baginya selama mana dia taat kepada suaminya serta menjaga sembahyang dan puasanya.

15 Wanita yang taat berkhidmat kepada suaminya akan tertutup pintu-pintu neraka dan terbuka pintu-pintu syurga. Masuklah dari mana-mana pintu yang dia kehendaki dengan tidak dihisab.

16 Syurga itu di bawah tapak kaki ibu.

17 Wanita yang tinggal bersama anak-anaknya akan tinggal bersama aku (Nabi s.a.w) di dalam syurga.

18 Barangsiapa mempunyai tiga anak perempuan atau tiga saudara perempuan atau dua anak perempuan atau dua saudara perempuan lalu dia bersikap ihsan dalam pergaulan dengan mereka dan mendidik mereka dengan penuh rasa takwa serta bertanggungjawab, maka baginya syurga.

19 Daripada Aisyah r.a. Barangsiapa yang diuji dengan sesuatu daripada anak-anak perempuannya, lalu dia berbuat baik kepada mereka, maka mereka akan menjadi penghalang baginya daripada api neraka.

p/s: Tidakkah anda sedar betapa beruntung nya anda yang bergelar wanita?gembira

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Biggest Loser or Biggest Lover

So, I saw the programme The Biggest Loser Asia today and it got me thinking about this one contestant. He'd got voted out actually. The main reason why the others voted him out mainly because this Hafiz lose his concentration. Why? Because he was falling in love with this girl called Christine who is in the game too. What the...
Right now, what I don't understand is why, even IF you are in love with someone, why can't you use it as an inspiration? Why does it have to be the reason to fall?To be lacking in concentration in whatever you are doing just because you're crazy about someone. It's not right people!
I always hate it when I lose my concentration particularly when I'm studying or doing something really important but suddenly got distracted because this person keeps popping into my head. I didn't ask for it but then I thought I was the One who brought him into my head (If you know what I mean). I know its hard sometimes to not think about someone you like for a day but you got to think of what is more important. For example, in The Biggest Loser competition. It's a game. It's a competition for God's sake. Know your purpose in life. Did you enter the game to win or to fall in love? Yes, these things do happen unexpectedly. You never know what's around the corner. But pull yourself together! Get your eyes back on the goal, achieve it and then get back to love. "Kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana." Correct me if I'm wrong here.

"sikaranye, untuk mencari teman hidup, bg saya cuba la perbaiki diri kita untuk lebih kuat berpegang pada agama dulu.. insya Allah, akan bertemu pula dengan pasangan yang juga kuat agamanya..

bukan kah lelaki yang baik itu untuk perempuan yang baik pula.."

The quote above I got from someone in ILuvIslam.com. He's right. If you want to love someone, you'd better earn His Love before that. You think you are in love with someone but you never know for sure if he's the one straight away do you? So, focus on what you want to achieve first. Don't give up all you have worked for so willingly for a thing called Love. Yes, Love needs sacrifice but make sure you are doing the right thing. Don't risk it all for the wrong reason.



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Wallahualam

Monday, February 1, 2010

Jealous much

ENvy is such a terrible feeling isn't it? I couldn't fool myself anymore. Yes, I always expect myself to be at the top and when I tumbled down below, I couldn't handle the situation.
Living in a boarding school has made me into some kind of athlete who is in some kind of a race against everybody even my best friends. The frustration of seeing everyone ahead of me in exams, have made me into a selfish person indeed. I couldn't deny that.
Believe it or not, I couldn't even be in the same room if I see anyone studying. Back in form 4 was the worst. I couldn't even sleep if I see my dorm mates studying. SO SELFISH aren't I? My biggest mistake that I made was to my classmates. The boys didn't matter too much. It's just when you see someone who use to be lower than you but suddenly she's like awoken from her sleep, already beating me in study by a mile. I couldn't.
Although I tried to hide my anger, she would noticed it. It's not her fault I know that. And I'm sorry for being such a horrible person. Sometimes I just wished that she would stop reading,writing,studying...what kind of a person am I?
I know I'm dying for these wishes to come true but in the real world, you just have to accept that sometimes you're at the top and it's never possible for you to be in the bottom below. There are times that you might thought the whole world is turning its back from you and today might not be your day, be patient. Be patient because everything happens for a reason.
One more thing Nabila, don't treat everyone like your enemy. Both of you can be the best. Be like the Chinese crab, help your people don't bring them down just so you can be at the top. InsyaAllah you too will be on the road to success!