Sunday, June 19, 2011

Baik atau tidak baik bagiku?

Thank to all my sisters who constantly reminding me of why I am here today.
Hari demi hari mesti ada perkara yang baru yang boleh diambil ibrah atau pengajaran daripadanya. Allah tidak menjadikan sesuatu tanpa sebarang sebab. Mesti ada yang Dia nak sampaikan. Adakah kita perasan atau buat-buat tak perasan sebab tu bukan benda yang kita nak, kan?
Sesungguhnya Allah berfirman,
...tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui (2:216)

Jom kita tadabbur sikit ayat nie. Boleh jadi sesuatu benda tu kita suka sangat2 sampaikan yang tulah yang membuatkan hati kita nie gembira kalau boleh memilikinya or gunakannya but we don't know it may not be good for us. Saya nak ambil contoh la..especially buat muslimat yang disayangi... i know this because as a matter of fact it happened to me and alhamdulillah, saya dah nampak pengajaran yang Allah nak bagi kepada saya.
I used to wear clothes that kadang2 adik saya sendiri cakap , "kakak, pakai baju adik ke?" perghh..ayat pedas. this was when I was in form 2 or 3, something like that. Kalau dulu tu, xde la rasa sangat pun pakai baju2 mcm tu nampak salah. Baju jugak en. tutup mana yang patut. pakai tudung apa. tak cukup lagi? mana ada penah pakai seluar 3 quarters keluar main, apatah lagi short. nak kena pancung buat la. Tapi, betul ke tutup? ke kita je yang rasa 'tutup'.Persoalan nie memang dah berzaman org dok cakap tapi nak tanya jgk: Adakah aurat itu sekadar menutupi rambut? Betul x kalau saya cakap, pakai tudung pun kadang2 x bertudung? hmmm..mcm mana tu? Jangan tipu diri sendiri, tudung bawal n lebih2 lagi fesyen sekarang, hmpph hampeh. semua nampak leher. at least, jarang la.
Kenapa kita pakai mcm tu ye? First reason maybe because kita x perasan pun yang apa kita pakai sebenarnya tak ada pun istilah aurat kt pakaian kita (or maybe buat2 x nampak). Ramai org tau yang dia buat salah tapi tak nak mengaku. memang susah nak mengaku kt depan org n sometimes dgn diri sendiri un kita melawan, nak cakap kita nie betul jgk. Second, because we want to look 'good' di mata manusia. kenapa kita xnak look 'beautiful' di mata Allah? Tau tak betapa berharganya seorang wanita yang ditutup auratnya dengan sempurna, xmembiarkan orang lain melihat apa yang tak patut selaind drpd muhrimnya? well, we should kerana wanita tu ialah hiasan dunia yang paling indah. Tapi bukan sebarang wanita. WANITA SOLEHAH.

Saya akui bukan senang nak bermujahadah lebih2 lagi dalam umur kita yang masih muda. tapi tu lah yang membuatkan Allah lagi sayang apabila pemuda-pemudi menjaga agamaNya dengan sebaik mungkin. I hope I'm not just writing this and don't take any action. Its easier said than done, right?

InsyaAllah Allah kurniakan kita dengan iman yang mantap untuk menjadi a push-factor for us to change for the better, pray to Him because he is never tired of listening to us :) Pray He will give us , not necessarily what we want and would like, but the best that He can give us because Allah mengetahui sedangkan kita tidak mengetahui.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Aku sedih...

Salam warahmatullah...

Ok, this is the first week after the semester break. and it's MPI (minggu Penghayatan Islam) in kmb. But so far, i've seen so many wrongdoings and ironies in the students itself.

Sedih la... Allah has given so many peringatan dah kat kita semua. Kenapa xnk ambil? Kenapa buat2 x nampak? Kenapa kita takut nak cakap, "what you're doing right now is wrong." kenapa kita x cegah kemungkaran?

This particularly goes to me. Takut nya Ya Allah, kalau nanti Allah tanya apa yang aku dah buat untuk Islam? Subhanallah.. jangan kata nak dibandingkan dengan baginda Rasulullah, bahkan dengan rakan-rakan yang hati mereka Allah dah takhluki pun, apalah sangat yang aku dah contribute...

Nak bagitau jugak yang hati ni sebenarnya tengah sedih tengok kawan-kawan kt kmb. bukan semua cuma segelintir sahaja. tapi, kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga. maybe some of you know what I'm talking about. Ambil lah segala peringatan yang Allah dah bagi dalam masa seminggu nie utk panduan seumur hidup. ya, hidayah Allah ada di mana-mana sahaja tapi kalau kita buat2 x nampak, xboleh jugak. Grab it, my sisters. Know that I love you all dan saya nak kita semua berjumpa balik di syurga firdausi insyaAllah. Dan kalau saya ada salah silap, please correct me. tell me. kita sama2 pernah dan masih melakukan kesalahan2 jadi sama2 lah kita beri peringatan insyaAllah.

Sincerely,
your Muslim sister

Sunday, June 12, 2011

A quote


A woman should be so in love with Allah
that A man has to seek Him
in order to find her




Wahai muslimah2 sekalian, x dinafikn amatlah susah utk buat mcm nie. bg sesiapa yg dapat cinta Allah, simpanlah elok2. jgn lah dgn senang hati buang. Kalau nak bandingkn cinta Ilahi dgn cinta manusia, yg mana lebih kekal? So, (bercakap pada diri sendiri jugak hehe) open your heart to Allah first.

Friday, June 10, 2011

I bought myself a present

ngahaha...dis is wat happens to someone who don't usually have ppl buying her stuff (and thank God for that)

well, technically I used my dad's money :) maseh abah. the rm20 note just flung out of his wallet (and dat don't usually happen, I can tell ya) and he said , "nah, kamu beli cpt sikit." I was slightly taken aback by the abrupt action but thanks again, dad. InsyaAllah, if you are doing something for a good cause, Allah will make it easy for you :)

And is it for a good cause? InsyaAllah...Manusia nie, selain drpd makan scr fizikal, hati nurani die pun kena mkn jgk. Suapkn hati kecil kita nie dgn alunan ayat2 Allah, zikr & munajat dan segala benda yang baik. Pernah dgr x hadis

Rasulullah SAW bersabda bermaksud: "Ketahuilah dalam jasad manusia ada seketul daging, jika ia baik maka baiklah jasad itu dan jika ia rosak maka rosaklah jasad itu, itulah yang dinamakan hati." (Hadis riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim)

So, the present I was talking about is a book. And its not just any book, its a novel. Now, here you may think how on Earth can a novel boleh merawat hati yang sentiasa kejauhan dari Penciptanya. Well, lets give a round of applause for HLOVATE. When I first saw the front cover of VERSUS (the author's first first book I think), I'd never thought the content was like it is. But then after hearing my friends talking about it and how good the storyline was, I'd decided to give it a try. and let me tell you, it was worth it Alhamdulillah! Story dia mmg suit dgn remaja cm kita yg sedang mencari Allah dan pengisian rohani nie. memang mantap la Hlovate. its not just any boring lovey dovey stuff but compact dgn ilmu.
However, I didn't buy VERSUS though I'm still searching for any bookstore that has discounts on all Hlovate's books. O yeah, saya pun dah jatuh hati dengan karya beliau so I brought the latest one 'CONTENGAN JALANAN' ngehehe...
At first, I was going to read it right after I arrived home but then, looking at the piles of homework waiting to be done, it was almost impossible. Straining myself from tearing off the plastic cover of the book, I thought of keeping it nicely with its cover on until my birthday :)
A present from Nabila to Nabila. Yeah well, maybe some of you thinks it's sad and all that, but how often do you buy yourself a gift, right? Think of it as a token of appreciation to yourself for being you and insyaAllah for being a BETTER you.

Ni nak rewind back sikit to my past ...
This was during my year in Taiping. Someone msgd me and asked, "dah ade dh ke THE GIFT, yg cecelia ahern tu?" yep, that time I was sooo into Cecelia Ahern. best kot buku die. anyway, I said, "nope but I'd love to buy it." especially the one I saw in Popular, siap dengan ribbon lg kt buku tu, literally 'the gift'. Then, dia tu ckp, 'xpyh beli. nak bg nie.' I was like, fuyoo! tak pernah2 org nk bagi free2 je buku yg ak minat as a present. unbelievable laa jgk msa tu. Punya la dok terbayang, cmne la org nie nk bagi kat aku. dlm kotak ke, balut ke..smpai ke sekecik2 detail ngehehe..ye la, first time dapat hadiah dr dia tu.
but wait, the funny thing was I'd never got the present :) That person tiba2 had to move school so bila masuk taun baru, dia dh xde. Ad problem kot so, apakan daya. Kawan xsempat bg. smpai sekarang xde contact ngn dia. Anyway, as for the book, it was hard for me to forget about it and during my holiday after spm (imagine one year after org nk bagi buku tu tp xterbg) I bought 'The Gift' myself. hihihi..

I think when you buy yourself a book, you'll appreciate it more because until now, xde kedut2 pun kt buku tu :) tp, kalau org belikn or hadiahkn, pun kita akn appreciate jgk en. no matter how you got the book, as long as you don't waste the valuable lessons in the story then it was certainly worth it reading the book.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Monday, June 6, 2011

2 places on Earth I wanna go to

I don't know why but I would love to go to Beijing. There was a friend of mine who went to this place and when I saw the pictures, it was like an instant love. For me, Beijing has something that I couldn't point my finger to. Its such a..what's the word for it? It has its own attraction to my heart.
Once I saw a documentary on it n from there I knew it was a place in China with most Muslims in it (InsyaAllah betul :) It always amazes me to find a race other than Malays or Arabs with Islam in their heart and how strong they are with their faith. even the Malays right now are facing so much problem.
Kadang-kadang tu rasa Ya Allah malunye tengok bangsa sendiri ntah hanyut ke mana but then where is my role in preventing it? Cakap pandai tapi tangan nie x intervene2 pun. Ye memang selemah-lemah iman mencegah dengan hati but I believe there is so much more than we as brothers and sisters of Islam, can do. Only I need guidance from you all.
Anyway, if I have a chance to go to Beijing, I would visit the Great Wall of China and Summer Palace. hehe, these are the only two place I know right now.O and hari tu ada my ustaz kt kmb, dia kata dia nak g becuti nak menziarahi pusara Saad b Abu Waqqas..aku yang xtau pape nie ingat kt negeri Arab la. but then, a friend said "fuyooo, ustaz nak g China tuh." Ok, nabila. u're so need to read on sirah again. Even though its in Guangzhou, I'm sure I could diverge a little bit from Beijing to visit pusara Saad b Abu Waqqas :)

Dalam rukun Islam yang ke-5, Allah said "tunaikan haji sekali seumur hidup jika mampu". This year, my parents had a chance (given by Allah) to perform umrah. Hearing my mother's stories made me wanna go through all the extaordinary experiences myself. For some ppl, they may hav been there once or twice or even every year but for me yang tak pernah jejakkan kaki kt sana, for sure I want to have the chance to go. Cuti ni, ada dua org dari kelas aku yang pegi sana. eeee sgt best!
My mum said, "Sitting on the steps in Masjidil Haram with the Kaabah in front of me made me forget all the worries in the world and it just filled me with such tranquility that there is no word to describe the feeling." O Allah, I wanna feel it too!
Just something to ponder on:Have you ever wondered macam mana satu tamadun agung boleh bermula di tengah2 padang pasir sedangkan all the other great civilisation start dekat tepi2 (rewind back to ur form 4 books ppl) Allah nak tunjukkan kalau Allah kata 'kun-fayakun', anything can happen. betapa bertuahnya kita sebagai saudara Islam.

I couldn't really say that these are the only places on Earth I wanna go to but right now, they are on the top of the list with Makkah leading :) InsyaAllah

In the jungle?!

How old were you when you started to think about how your own family would be like?
Well, I couldn't exactly remember when but I know for sure it was way back when I was young hehe...

When I have my own kids (this was a long time ago), I'd actually thought to whisk away all my children and go build a treehouse in the jungle (HAHAHA).
Sebab apa aku nak wat cmnie?
Tengokla ap yang semakin menjadi2 di dunia ni. takutnya kalau kita x boleh nak mendidik anak2 kita dengan baik dan akhirnya, mereka menjadi rakan-rakan syaitan. Na'uzubillah...I'm scared if I fail to raise my kids properly, fail to lead them to Allah. I am very thankful for having the chance to be raised in a wonderful family. Memang betulla, 'anak itu ibarat kain putih dan ibu bapa yang mencorakkannya.'
Parents do play the biggest role in shaping their child, whether they would turn good or even bad. However, we can't simply turn a blind eye to the external factors: friends, internet, etc...

I thought at that time (back when I was small, that is) the simplest way to avoid my child from having negative influences is to bring them to a place where there would be nobody else around, just us. A treehouse would be perfect. just like the one in george of the jungle. ooo best2. Maybe once in a while I could bring them to the city...

If george can raise a family in the jungle why can't I?
Ok..back to reality NABILA!

aku rasa susah la kalo nak totally avoid the whole world. And akan jadi ssh kalo nak ajar anak2 sorg sbb brape sgtlah ilmu yang kita ada berbanding dengan ustaz dan ustazah, kalo x pun org yang dah ad banyak ilmu dr kita yg seciput nie..
so, whatever diffiiculties that comes in my way now n in the future, I pray that Allah gives me strength to do my best in overcumin the hurdles in life insyaAllah

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Fave Quote of the Day

Tawakkul: Make Du'a, Do your best, And leave the Rest To Allah.

The meaning of tawakkal.
Manusia nie selalu lupa untuk bertawakkal.
Once you're finished with something (lets say ur exam) we always spend the time after that enjoying ourselves to the fullest.
Allah is forgotten for a while, Our prayers are cut short just so we can spend more time watching tv, going out to the mall etc...
Tawakkal means once we've doin sumthing to the fullest, we pray for the best.
Pray
Pray
Pray
O Allah, I've done my best. Now, I pray to You to give what is the best for me

Friday, June 3, 2011

Where is ME


I am in a quest. A search for myself.
And in this search, I am also trying to find Him.

Allah..Itsbeen a while since I've read Your letters to me. This heart is longed for You. I need to beg for Your forgiveness.
The sins I've committed, are uncountable. To compare it to the droplets of water in the sea, my sins are much more.


Thursday, June 2, 2011

Sifat Manusia yang Allah benci

Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mengapa kamu mengatakan sesuatu yang tidak kamu kerjakan?
(Itu) sangatlah dibenci di sisi Allah sekiranya kamu mengatakan sesuatu yang tidak kamu kerjakan.
(61:2-61:3)

From my earlier post, I said that iman turun naik tapi saya harus membuat sesuatu dan tidak hanya membiarkan iman saya terus menjunam lebih teruk lagi.
I think I have to be constantly reminded all the time on this particular issue.
Tidakkah ayat di atas ini satu amaran daripada Allah? Saying things but you yourself not doing it is a horrible thing to do. But I couldn't lie to myself how many times I have done that.
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman..." This is without doubt a hard thing to do as I am always doing something wrong but that doesn't mean I have to stop myself from trying. At the very least, I have an effort in trying to become one. Whether I will or will not, it all depends on Allah. But Nabila, have you tried hard enough? Or it is just like melepaskan batuk di tangga? When you get to the middle of the journey, you always stop and rest for a long time, when actually what you have to do is go on.
"Mengapa kamu mengatakan sesuatu yang tidak kamu kerjakan?" Perghh..this verse is like a a stab through the heart. Allah is always giving me signs and giving me the end of the rope to grab on and come back to Him. Have I even tried to take it? Even if I did, I think it always slips. I am not hanging on to it tightly enough. What made you do that then? It seems like what the love letters you've read over and over again enters your right ear and exit through your left ear. It never stays in your heart. How many black spots do you think covering your heart now? Is the numbers growing?
"itu sangatlah DIBENCI di sisi Allah..." Ok. Allah didn't use the word 'tidak menyukai' or other words that are softer. This is HATE. So, it really does mean Allah hate this attitude of human. We are like travellers, only stopping in 'Dunia' to pack for an even longer journey ahead. And throughout our time at this pit-stop, we are supposed to seek 'redha Allah'. The worst thing that could happen is we get the opposite of His redha. Nabila, nabila. Please, you are not merely writing this down. You're the one writing all of this and remember, Allah tidak menyukai orang yang mengatakan sesuatu yang mereka tidak kerjakan. Always remember that.

PS: the itallic writing above besides the verse of Al-Quran are my conscience speaking out to me...



Wednesday, June 1, 2011

waduh2...cuti

cuti.
if i said dat cuti = iman turun ?
how many of u would agree?
hakikatnya, iman will go up and down.

BUT

it is still up to us whether we would do sumthin about it or not.

(this goes for me in particular)