Kerana dakwah ni jalan yang panjang.
Kerana kerja ini bukanlah imbalannya dapat serta-merta
Kerana yang ku harapkan ialah redha Allah semata.
Ya rabb,
How hard it is to mould a heart, only You know!
But then again, only You that can give them hidayah.
Sometimes it is just so ... Hard. To keep going. To keep giving when you know that they don'T even want to be given.
This morning when i woke up, i just felt like giving up.
Why should i work so hard for something that i couldn't see the result of?
But
I remembered how You made their hearts close to mine. How their talks, their smiles made me such a happy and blessed person for the whole day!
Maybe this is what it feels like to have someone you love so dearly, to have that chance of knowing You as well!
Ya rabb,
Make my heart steadfast.
Give me that iradah qawiyah.
If this was not for the sake of You, i would have left. Because it takes so much effort just to keep praying and hoping.
But then again, have you tried enough, DI? Rasulullah knocked on 100 tents before he eventually came to one that would accept islam. And yet, you are only knocking on what, 2nd or 3rd tents only?
May Allah make me steadfast.
