Yup, this is it

Hati DI rasa mcm kena thumped byk kali kebelakangan nie.
evrything thats happening, it like a blow rite in the middle of the heart.
manusia, normal la kan kalo rasa mcm nie.
rasa syok sekejap, pastu rasa cm, "what's d point? it doesn't guarantee anything"
rasa xbest. rasa cm dah commit satu mistake yang amat dasyat sekali. (bagi DI ini, macam tu la)

haha..mesti x phm. what is this girl saying???


too much worrying about the future, makes you forget about the present.


and betapa selfish nya DI rasa sebab worry pasal future DI, forgetting that the rest of the world, my brothers n sisters, need me right now.

while evryone is busying theirselves with what's happening to our world, DI mcm meng-excludekn diri, terawang-awangan dgn dreams that are uncertain, feeling like i'm 'at the top of the world' while my brothers & sisters r suffering here n there. 

macam mana la nak naik satu tangga dlm maratib amal, kalau diri sendiri x settle lagi? 


when i'm still in my own world, its like im excluding myself from being a part of the bigger picture. Allah dah cakap Islam akan naik, kenapa xnk jadi a part of it? going all out in being a muslim yang hebat!

Subhanallah, DI sentiasa rasa disayangi sbb tatkala DI ini leka dengan permainan dunia, Allah tak nak hamba dia nie terlepas dari sesuatu yang mashaAllah, lebih important.

Evrytime we're doing something, ask ourselves: am i suppose to do this? does this, in anyway, a contribution that i'm giving, as a muslim? can people see Islam with what I'm doing?

If its no, then stop doing it immediately, even when u sometimes feel there's no harm in doin it. and kalau lebih teruk lagi, bila kita rasa seronok dgn apa yang kita buat, padahal benda tu x mendatangkan apa2 kebaikan kpd diri in the long run.

Yakinlah, ramai yang memerlukan tenagamu untuk tegakkan agama Allah yang pasti ni. selagi orang yang kita kenal xtau apa itu Islam, selagi tu our heart n soul is needed. yup, this is the road i'm choosing.

like a friend once wrote: Jannah is expensive :) xkan expect DI nak masuk tanpa menitikkan keringat sedikit pun untuk Dia?

Nahnu ansarullah!

Semakin suntuk

*blink blink*
sem 4 is coming. n its coming fast.
nearly 2 years studying IB. and what a person i hav become haha.
LIST of things still going on:

• TOK essay yg memerlukan byk membaca
• EE fuhhhh 3rd draft dah dowhhhh
• World lit -takut plagiarism waaa

without this three, my life in IB wouldn't b complete. 

*counting...* so, 4-5 more days still. 

berseronok di rumah, dah. mengasyikkan diri dgn hiburan tv yg xde byk sgt manfaatny, dah. tido byk, pun dah. 

checklist yg xperlu plak yg dah abes dibuat.

hmmm...sesungguhnya yg akhir lebih baek drpd permulaan. even tho dah teruk sgt habiskn masa, kalo x abes g cuti, DI tetap ad lg waktu yg boleh digunakan sebaiknya, inshaAllah. 

tolak tepi KESERONOKAN D DUNIA!!!

nak merakit2 dahulu. nk bersenang2 nnti laaaa

Kesedaran

i bought a present for myself about 3 to 4 months ago. and it was the best present ever Allah has given me. DI dapat kesedaran.

"it is He Who sends down manifest Ayat (proofs, evidence, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc) to His slave (Muhammad) that He may bring you out from darkness into light. And verily, Allah is to you full of kindness, Most Merciful." (al-Hadiid [57:9])

Allah has guided me to finish reading a book today, d present that i bought. given that nearly all my friends has finished reading it already, way before i did, they were constantly talked and shared about how good the book was. feeling not wanting to be left out, i also commented that it was great, just like they said.

the truth is, sometimes i didn't feel like it at all.

Memang hati tu Allah yang pegang. Memang tak boleh paksa hati ni untuk accept apa yang orang lain dah boleh accept. 

Mayb DI dah lama terima DnT, tapi hati nie kadang2 berbolak balik kan. memang tak penah lepas dari keadaan macam nie. tapi in evry cases, Allah x penah lupa kat hamba dia yang sorg nie :')

Allah gives His proofs, evidence, verses, lessons, signs, revelations dalam pelbagai bentuk.

manusia lebih suka lihat apa yang dia mahu. jika bukan kehendak, dibutakan aja mata daripada melihat walau yang benar itu di depan mata, right?

we turn a blind eye at the things our mind wudn't want to accept. even if its the truth. truth which He already says it in the Quran. when do we want to take lessons from that?

Every seconds in our life, every things that we've come across in our life, there's always a reason for that yang Allah nak sampaikan. Lets learn to take ibrah from all of that.

PS: if before this, im always demanding everyone for a present, now i've come to realise that everyone is already the present i've been needing. maybe once its not what i want but through everyone, i learned the essence of life. this life and the Hereafter. thats wayyy more important :)

marah

DI xsuka perkataan tu, perbuatan tu, apa2 la yg berkaitan dgn benda nie.
DI benci kemarahan. sbb lepas tu dia akn mengundang kesedihan.
n when that happens, mula lah waterfall.
dimarahi, selalu.
like right now.

beristighfar? yes. i soo need to do it right now. keep it cool

Its that time of the year!

Holiday of The Year!

Even though its only in Langkawi, it was certainly one of the best vacation i've had so far, alhamdulillah

in the water

banana boat. d coolest experience being on it!

ke-poyo-an : a brother n a cousin 

another ke-poyo-an

nice

father n daughter

in one of d cabin

entrance of the pregnant maiden lake

beautiful :)

subhanallah :)

resort we stayed at

going on a cruise woohooo!

sunset :)

my brother n a 'pregnant' tree at the lake. =.=

Comel:)

DI sgt 1000x bersyukur (no end to syukur) dgn akhawat yg hebat2 yg dikurniakn Allah yg Maha Hebat utk DI.
Subhanallah, i really don't know if i can face all of dis on my own.
Allah ciptakn those hands yg sanggup tarik menarik balik DI to the right path so none of us wud ever be left behind. this is what i call love :')
wahh..there was one time wen i was sittin in d surau blok, listening to d kulsem given. all i did was hear. but then masyaAllah, it was sumthin like lights entering d surau. Allah sent his army. my beloved friends yang seriusly, those who wud do anythin for Allah. to have Islam back to its rightful place in this world. rsa cm kagum sgt waktu tu.. d surau lit up in their presence. to be sittin in a room with sumone who u know is fighting for the same thing as you, and the bond is strengthened with the love for Him, perghhh..coolness, alhamdulillah.
and Allah never leave me alone too, even during these critical times of holidays. He keeps giving me reminders through them.
the words, the calls, the msgs, all have helped me to push my way through the jahiliyah. its soooo cute wen i receives non-stop msgs from my sis, whom with their thoughts have made me rethink about my steps that i'm taking.
if i go back in time, i wudn't have even dream any of this wud happen to me. my inbox were never full of girls names. heeehee, but now when it has, all i cud say is
ALHAMDULILLAH :)

Dr belajar Physics

i never thought i hav to hold another physics book again.
O well. ini adalah kelebihan seorang student. blaja byk2 subject, bleh tolong yg lain yg lebih muda :D

o Baloo, u hav 2 be thnkful to Allah i'm willing to open dis book just for you n ur SPM.

Tanpa kita sedar, kadang2 kita nie riak sbb bajet tau byk sgt benda compared to our younger siblings. show off sumtimes.
tp ingatlah, ilmu Allah itu lebih luas. LAGI LUAS
i luv dis quote: kalau kita amek seluruh air utk jd dakwat pen nk tulis ilmu Allah, nescaya sehingga kering pun xkn habis punye nk tulis


So, brother. dis is only a small thing dat i can do to help you. Pray to Allah to ease ur future undertkings in ur exam next year because its Him who decides what its going to be like. Kita usaha. bukan sbb nk berjaya. tp sebab kita nk dapat redha Allah. rugila kita kalo Allah bg chance utk usaha, tp kita wat ala kadar je. n plus, we don't know d outcome so we might as well try our hardest n put our best effort into it insyaAllah!

Make Me strong

Sem 3 suda habis. Its that time of year again. Holidays. A part of me is shouting "Yippee!" but another part is scared. Scared of whats cumin up ahead for me. What Allah has in store for me, to test me.

Memang fitrah manusia yang kita nie akn minx tolong kt Allah, sbb Allah tu Rabb kita. Tapi brape ramai yang meletakkan Allah sbg Illah kita?


Apa yang membezakan org Arab Jahiliyah ngn kita?
Diorg letak Allah sbg Rabb tp bezanya, diorg x letak Allah sbg Illah. Yang Disembah.
Going back to what dis is all about, DI kdg2 anggap Allah sbg tempat kedua. plus, bila dh selalu berdoa, secara automatik mesti minx kt Allah.smpaikan kdg2 tu perasan pon sbnry tgh berdoa ap. laju je doa keluar dr mulut tp the words, meaningless.
Xperasan?

Make Me strong. Make me strong enough to get past this test. Make me strong enough to cling tight to You. Make me strong enough to be loved by You, always.


Kalau boleh la, nak je slalu rasa dat feeling yang Allah tgh dengar DI mengadu.

Haha..lawak la manusia nie. nak yg terBAIK dari Allah tp xpenah pun usaha nak dapatkn benda tu. Minta pastu buat dosa. Minta, then buat dosa.
nak taubat pulak, asyik2 tangguh. (terpoint kt DI)

Astaghfirullahal a'zim.
Make me strong to fight this battle during my time in dunya Ya Allah. Please give me the strength to keep going in this true path. I don't wanna turn back.