My plan? to stay in Belfast in my room so that I could catch up with everything that I've missed with the lectures etc. 3 weeks off balik msia kan . hah
But, Allah nak uji dekat kelemahan tu jugak. n pada masa ni jugak.
hmmm..even though muka senyum je terima org datang belfast, tapi kdgkala tu bisikan tu muncul jgk dlm hati yg rapuh nie.
masa dah tinggal sedikit.
susah sgt nak ikhlaskn hati nie. byk kali je Allah bg reassurance tu, xpe TIME is MINE to give. on top of that, Dia bagi lagi pahala. rupa2nya ganjaran utk benda yg sekecil2 kita buat pun Allah nak bg hadiah.
I came across the ayat when I busy thinking and was asking Allah what is my purpose of doing what i was doing?
Allah tau je apa yg kita tgh pikir. and Dia tau yg DI takut xsempat nak catch up.
Tapi Allah kata, orang yg infakkan harta, masa dan JIWA utk cari redha Allah (tu kan selama nie matlamat kita :)) dan bukan utk sape2 pun tp utk diri sendiri jgk, Allah akan lipatgandakan lg ganjaran tu. kalau bukan sekarang, nanti. but always have in mind that pertolongan Allah tu dkt. dan kita pun kena lah usaha jgk.
Allah, DI xboleh survive utk nak baca satu mukasurat pun buku2 yg tebal kt atas meja nie kalau Allah x bagi. Allah, ease me.
and subhanallah, Allah tambah lagi. Dia nampak je kita buat apa. so, kita buat utk Dia. ikhlas utk Dia. we can't really judge to what extent is our sincerity, tp kita perbetulkn niat. kalau boleh, setiap langkah sbb hati nie sentiasa berbolak balik.
sebenarnya x banyak pun yg kita infakkan. tu pun kalo infak dgn hati yg redha.
setiap kali terima tetamu, masuklah pahala sekali.
Allah, terimalah amalan yg x seberapa nie.
ease our days that are still yet to come.
Rabbuna yusahhil bell sayang..Keep on fighting!My pray will always be with you,insyaAllah..
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