yang gigih

when is Allah's help going to come to us?

sounds familiar? yeah, mmg ayat dlm quran. org2 yang beriman pun iman diorg digoncang  bila diuji.

di situlah diuji orang-orang mukmin dan digoncangkan (hatinya) dengan goncangan yang dasyat.

(33:11)

When we put our whole trust, hope, faith to somebody, we believe in all our hearts that one person would come to our rescue whenever trouble comes. like a ninja heh. 

tapi bila pertolongan tu macam xsampai2 , mula lah hati nie dpt penyakit ragu2, tambah lg dgn bisikan2 yg menambahkan lg ketidakpastian. 

sebab kita punye expectation nie lupa nak ditambah dgn satu benda. sabar. kalau DI, masak lah paling masalah sbb i hate waiting. waiting for minyak nak naik bla3. xsabar. 

the same thing apply. bila laaaaaa Allah nak hantar seorg khalifah kt muka bumi nie? bila lah Allah nak bg menang tentera2 islam yang saban hari bermandi darah kt bumi mesir nie? 

bila bila bila.

one thing a sister said that really struck me, maybe Allah's help has already came. maybe we are on the winning side. maybe we are winning after all despite all the bloodshed. 

aikkk? mana dia kemenangan tue? xnampak pun. mmg la, dah tgk dgn mata kasar. mata hati letak mana? hmmm...mungkin dgn segala kejadian di atas bumi pd org Islam skrg dah byk membuka mata hati mukmin2 yg diserata dunia utk ambil KISAH pasal ummat. mungkin. 

Salim A. Fillah ad tulis-

1) Bagi tiap orang zhalim yang perkasa; Allah selalu hadirkan pejuang gigih. Tapi Dia Maha Kuasa mengakhiri dengan hal kecil & sederhana.

2) Bagi Fir'aun yang merasa kuasa mengalirkan Nil & memperbudak Bani Israil; ada Musa tak putus asa. Tapi airlah yang mengakhiri si raja.

3) Bagi Namrud yang menyatakan mampu menghidupkan & mematikan; ada Ibrahim mendebatnya. Tapi nyamuk saja yang menjadi sebab khatamnya.

4) Bagi gegap gempita kepungan pasukan Ahzab; ada keteguhan Nabi & para sahabat di dalam Khandaq. Tapi anginlah yang menyapu bersihnya.

5) Bagi Abrahah & pasukan gajah yang pongah; ada 'Abdul Muthalib berserah pada Allah. Lalu batu kecil dari sijjil dilempar burung mungil.

6) Bagi Jalut yang kuatnya membuat takut & kecut; ada Thalut yang diutus bersama tabut. Tapi ketapel kecil bocah Dawud lah pembawa maut.

7) Maka tugas kita atas kezhaliman hanya taat pada Allah & berteguh istiqamah. Lalu bersiaplah tuk kejutan pertolonganNya Yang Maha Jaya.

Lemme quote the sentence again. bagi tiap org zhaliM yang perkasa, Allah selalu hadirkan pejuang gigih. DI sangatlah suka dgn kata2 dia nie. tgk zaman firaun, Allah hadirkan Musa n Harun . zmn Namrud, Allah hadirkan Ibrahim. zaman As-Sisi? 

ciri2 pemimpin yg jahat, kalau nak keluarkan satu2 dr pemimpin masa kini, semuanya ad kat Firaun. this statement- is like sooo true. bila dgr, ye x ye. mmg. 

Allah hadirkan pejuang yg gigih and we are all aware of those rijal2 yang tetap teguh mempertahankan Islam di bumi anbiya' sekarang nie. moga Allah jadikan kita among those pejuang. 

"Ya Allah, maybe i don't have the strength to face those military soldiers and stand up to them, but please give me the strength to continue to spread the word of Islam to others and little by little, i become among those hawariyyun."

and like I said before, instill patience in ourselves. Allah hadirkan pejuang2 yg gigih, tapi Dia Maha Berkuasa mengakhiri dgn hal kecil dan sederhana. 

kecil dan sederhana bg Dia. pertolongan Allah yang tak disangka2. tapi kena ad pejuang yang gigih. Allah tgk usaha, bukan natijah. i really need to repeat this in my head over and over again. 

 

a small bird

HudHud.
Dulu cam xphm sgt pun kisah satu nie. tp mesti lah ad something big yg Allah nak bgtau since the story is forever embedded in the Quran?

In surah al-naml, Allah tells about Sulaiman r.a who ruled a vast kingdom, became the King of all the creatures on Earth. He asked of HudHud, a small bird who wasn't present when the king called upon every living things to gather in front of him.

Dan (setelah itu) Nabi Sulaiman memeriksa kumpulan burung (yang turut serta dalam tenteranya) lalu berkata: "Mengapa aku tidak melihat burung belatuk? Adakah ia dari mereka yang tidak hadir?"Demi sesungguhnya! Aku akan menyeksanya dengan seksa yang seberat-beratnya, atau aku akan menyembelihnya, kecuali ia membawa kepadaku alasan yang terang nyata (yang membuktikan sebab-sebab ia tidak hadir)".Burung belatuk itu tidak lama ghaibnya selepas itu, lalu datang sambil berkata (kepada Nabi Sulaiman): "Aku dapat mengetahui secara meliputi akan perkara yang engkau tidak cukup mengetahuinya, dan aku datang kepadamu dari negeri Saba' dengan membawa khabar berita yang diyakini kebenarannya.

(an-Naml: 21-22)

These verses sums up pretty much the whole thing. The biggest lesson here is from HudHud itself. how a small bird, with only a pair of small wings could fly thousands of miles between Sulaiman's and Balqis' kingdom. and why did it even bother? because it wanted to find out for itself, ventured out into the world outside its normal zone, to find who else on this Earth did not submit to the One true God. In other words, to try and spread Islam itself, despite of the distance, despite of its size.

OMG. memang la. mana nye air tak keruh kalau stagnant kat satu tempat je? merasakan diri dah cukup baik. merasakan diri dah buat segalanya yang termampu utk menjadi baik. 

silap besar la. buat dakwah bukan utk diri sendiri. 

yes, utk membina diri and to be better. but how can all submit their selves to Allah if there is no one to tell them to??? how did we became like we are now in the first place if we can really claim that we have become all that Allah wanted us to be?

Stagnant, busuk. but bila mengalir, subhanallah, org lain pun turut merasa nikmatnya air yg jernih tu. sama jugak mcm diri. kalau dah rasa diri dah 'cukup', there's trouble ahead. because we can never claim we have enough knowledge, let alone enough of being good.

bila rasa diri cm xbergerak, u need HudHud's inner push. its dzatiyah (heh). HudHud didn't wait to be ordered around by Sulaiman r.a. sebab hidup dia bukan berpaksikan pd the king, but the Ruler of the World. push, bila mana dah realise u need it to be able to move forward. dan push tu , always have to pray for it to be given to you.  because u never want to be left behind rite. dalam hidup nak no. 1 sentiasa, dalam dakwah n tarbiyah, always need to be ahead. because there are people, out there, yg x dpt lagi nak merasai nikmatnya Islam tu. nikmatnya bila everything we do, we do it because of Allah. so sume benda x jadi sia2. lain dgn berubah sbb org. bila org tue dah xbermakna dlm hidup or xde, the urge itself to become a 'somebody' also withers away like dust. 

when its all about Allah, u don't rest until u reach Him at the end. nama pun da'ie?

i think  i accidentally found the answer to my question which i;ve been looking for, for a long time now.

eh. mana ad accidental. all is Allah's doing. 

turning point

DI nak merasai that turning point, which i've felt once long time ago. to me, it felt like a long time. all this while, i feel lifeless. doing the things people expect me to do. no fun. i'm tired of feeling like this. Sungguh, mahu merasai pukulan Allah setiap langkah.
one year already and still, its like standing on the same square. scared, nervous, i don't know the right word for it. i never wanted to be someone who doesn't want to grow up. i'm no Peter Pan.

Allahu,
air yang stagnant akan busuk jgk kalau lama x bergerak.
hati yang dah lama tak digilap akn start hilang cahaya.

see u

see u when i see u. Allah, jagakan? 

moga perjalanan pulang tidak sia2.

moga terus mengejar gerabak yg tidak akan berhenti.

moga terus disayangi Dia 

dan moga hidup tidak dipersia2 kan.

belfast. utk kali kedua.

im coming home.

home? boleh la.

Allah, permudahkan.