turning point

DI nak merasai that turning point, which i've felt once long time ago. to me, it felt like a long time. all this while, i feel lifeless. doing the things people expect me to do. no fun. i'm tired of feeling like this. Sungguh, mahu merasai pukulan Allah setiap langkah.
one year already and still, its like standing on the same square. scared, nervous, i don't know the right word for it. i never wanted to be someone who doesn't want to grow up. i'm no Peter Pan.

Allahu,
air yang stagnant akan busuk jgk kalau lama x bergerak.
hati yang dah lama tak digilap akn start hilang cahaya.