I'm still too young for this!

Kenapa semua orang sibuk nak ber-couple ek? Is it a trend nowadays? Loads of profile in fb yang saya bukak ada je 'in relationship with'. If not that, ada je kat wall diorg, 'i love u' bla3... thank God most of my friends are not like that. Yeah, most.

As a teenager, I'm not excluded in having this kind of feeling. I have to admit even living a busy life doing IB, there are times where the syaitan would poke me with 'love'. I couldn't even look at this one guy because I was afraid where my thoughts would take me if I started to have fantasies in my head.

"dan jika setan datang menggodamu, maka berlindunglah kepada Allah. Sungguh Dia Maha Mendengar, Maha Mengetahui." (Al-A'raf, ayat 200)

You know what, I actually thought somebody was having a crush on me! how stu***. That was the point setan has made its way into my heart. And because of it, I couldn't concentrate on my one and only love. Because of one human being, I turned my back on Him. Ya Allah, forgive me.

No matter how many times I told myself to ignore it, it always made its way back to me. This feeling that doesn't even last long.

I made a promise to myself. As long as I'm on this road of dakwah, I am not to be letting myself easily fall for someone. Yes, if its takdir then who am I to push it away but I really really really need to find His love. If I can't find Him in my heart, I doubt I would ever find anyone.

For now, please guide me O Allah. Make me pass IB first! and help me find the right path.