I'm tired of thinking about it

Seriously, I dunno why my mind keeps wandering to that 'thing'

Its not even important

there are bigger things I need to worry about

You're doing IB. Now you really got BIGGER n BIGGER things to worry about.

When was the last time I've opened my tafsir?

I keep forgetting to remind myself constantly of the more important things. I'm too absorbed in this so-called 'world'

Am I going to be like this forever?

giving in to myself?