Boleh x nak geram?

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

betul la org kata sabar tu susah...senag je cakap 'sabar separuh daripada iman' tapi bila nak praktikkn, bagi saya memang susah.
kalau dulu2 smpai baling2 barang punye geram kt org (xla kt org tu) tp rsa cm yang tu je jln yg pling best nk lepaskn marah. puas hati.
geram nie dr semalam lg. tolong la,GERAMMMMM. nak baling laptop pun ad. baling la ap pun yg ad dkt ngn tgn.
utk mengelakkn drpd barang pecah, sy un try la bukak love letter pink saya. geram smpai tahap menangis nih. i was thinking of calling sumone, nak let go je kt dat person but bila scroll down d list of names to call, xde un yg rsa nk dicall. one reason was mayb they'r still having raya blast so i dunt want to spoil the mood. another might be because the urge of calling anyone at dat time suddenly faded.
Then i realised. wats d point of calling anyone just asking them to hear my problem when theres always the One who listens to me without having me to fork out my phone credit :')
Dalam hati nie, tolong la bg aku satu ayat je, satu je so dat dis feeling of hatred will go away. Memang Allah Maha Mengetahui. He knows how I feel and what I need.
Try bukak surah Taha (20:130)
and alhamdulillah saya try buat benda yang Allah suro wat, and Allah hadirkan walau secebis un, tapi Allah bagi jugak ketenangan.

Contengan Jalanan I-Fend

Alhadulillah baru seesai baca one of the 2 parts in Contengan Jalanan. and every chapter of this book never fails to teach me sumthing new Masya-Allah :)

So whoever Allah wants to guide - He expands his breast to [contain] Islam; and whoever He wants to misguide - He makes his breast tight and constricted as though he were climbing into the sky. Thus does Allah place defilement upon those who do not believe. (6:125)

Sangat-sangat la bersyukur Allah buka hati utk beli buku Hlovate nie. If I cud, I buy dis book n giv it to everyone I know. nk share betapa sweetnya tarbiyyah Allah melalui Contengan Jalanan.

Allah bagi baca pulak dlm waktu Ramadhan, sma ngn Fend. Godwilling, I want to taste the Ramadhan he has gone through, nak masuk kursus intensif gk. Bestny berlumba-lumba mengutip pahala dgn sahabat2 seperjuangan. Lagi best bila Allah kurniakan Harun untuk kita, mcm nabi Musa r.a.

Sedarlah, Allah always wants the best for us. His guidance is everywhere we lay our eyes on. Kadang-kadang Allah bagi kita air mata untuk dititiskn bukan nak bagi kita sedih, tapi carilah ibrah disebalik kesedihan tu. Ada je Allah nak ajar kita :)

Janganlah Engkau ambil hamba-Mu ini at d eleventh hour. I want to live through a life where I will not regret leaving. Not because of wealth, nor happiness with what i have right now or anything else for that matter. I just want a life where I can dedicate all my doings for You. I want to wake up before its too late.

At first I didn't really understand it.But now Alhamdulillah, Allah has shown me what it means.

The man who decided to change on the 12th hour dies on the 11th

You always make me feel better

Hmm......

Subhanallah. I think dat's the only word that can describe what i'm feeling.

Allah is sooooo sweet :)

He helped me get through one thing that I didn't think I wud b able to do. He kept me busy thinking of Him so dat I didn't cry.

Honestly, I thought it wud b hard for me but alhamdulillah His love filled my heart.

He has planned everything so beautifully. I cudn't hav wished for a better way :)

InsyaAllah I'm preparing myself for the future right now...but we can only plan. Allah will decide. Ya Allah, if this is the best for me, aku redha Ya Allah.

The 'LOve' in the picture

have I told u that the love sign in d picture above in dis blog-d one with my faces all around it hehe-a picture at taman tasik, Taiping?

Yup..to symbolises a place that have a lot of wonderful memories. A place where I learned something-not just a place where I took my SPM.

A place where I learned the meaning of love

(don't get me wrong here. love towards many things ok :))

A weekend with them :)

Last weekend, alhamdulillah Allah has given me the chance to see 2 of my best friends from tepeng :)

Currently, they're studying in RUssia doin Medic but not at the same place. One is at Nizhny n d other one in Moscow.

Its been almost a year now since d last time I saw them b4 they fly. Even tho the reunion wasn't planned properly, we still had a blast :D

Nana (my best friend too hihi) n I took a cab to d ERL n got off at kl central. Haja n Annes were supposed to meet us there. After a while, we saw Haja waiting, wearin a jubah. My God, she's still d same cute Haja :) Annes was d last person to arrive hehe... Since Kl central wasn't a really good place to hang out as there's nothin significant there, we'v decided to go to Mid n break our fast there.

It felt such a long time till d breakin of fast so we wandered around till our feet hurts. Being girls, its a nature to spend hours going into stores n outlets but not buying anythin :)

Haja wanted to eat at Kenny Rogers but it was fully booked so the man at the counter told us to cum at 8 pm. We insisted on booking a place but he said its alright, just come by later. We were like, 'fine, as long as there's a table.' After praying in a cramped space (seriously, they need to widen the surau or make some sort of renovation. Its a big shopping complex with a surau smaller than d one in KL central urghhh...it was devastating to see d condition.), we went back up with a grin on our faces imaginin d foods we were goin to order. Little did we know, we had to que. and it was a LONG QUE. I dunno abt evryone else but I kinda expected to just walk in, just like d man said. *A slap in d face* walk in je..yea rite.

Haja was mumbling under her breath, saying that she was goin to punch d man haha..making our way to the other restaurants, we walked for a quite a bit and finally decided to settle down at 'Belanga' restaurant. it was quite good actually, d food (not minding the price of one nasi lemak + ice lemon tea). o yea, annes brought with her strawberries n cherries yummy yum yum :)

We stayed there until 9.30. after enough chit chat, we made our way back to ktm hoho..it was cramped like in a sardine tin. literally. thank god for d ladies coach.

Since Annes had to go home because her family was going back to kampung, it was just the three of us in the end. We slept at INTEC dat nite, at putri's room (another friend of ours. btw, jazakillah put for lettin us stay overnight :)). we thought we can just go past d guard like we did last year but he caught us. well, nearly. Putri was there too because she came down to greet us. He stopped us and asked abt our id card. Putri bein a good girl and cudn't tel a lie, was speechless hehe. there was an awkward moment with evryone looking at each other, scared if we were goin to be kicked out. I, on d other hand, being not-so-good girl and was sooo tired of walking all day long, with a face of' we're-innocent' told him that all of our cards were left inside our 'room' b4 goin out (which was hardly believable as there's three of us, all went out without an ID). Seriously, I just wanted to lie down on putri's bed. Then, he went in at d pondok while we were like, 'we're dead.' I thought we had to write down our names or sumthin like dat n got into trouble. But Alhamdulillah, Allah was watching and always has been, d guard just told us not to do it again, leavin our ID dat is. :)))) syukran jazilan Ya Allah.

So, we stayed at INTEC and d next morning, packed our bags n went home. we did stopped at SACC mall (i think dats d name) n bought baju raya hehe.. better late than never, rite?

I had a fabulous time even though on Monday we were going to have a standardised test on Maths. going out for a weekend did not stop us from bringing our math books with us (Nana n I) n we still had time to study even though at sum place else besides KMB n our home.

Jazakumullah hukhairan kathira to NANA, HAJAR and ANNIS for d weekend. luv u all and I pray our friendship will last even wen u guys r in Russia n hopefully insyaAllah still together when Nana n I fly too :)

I cudn't really find a picture of d four of us since haja is shy-shy cat :)

(Front row: Annes is d 3rd from d left, Nana is wearin red, Haja is beside her, d small one)

This was taken ages ago wen we were still in Taiping :) waaa...miss Taiping so much!

One step ahead

Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah...

Seriously, if we want to compare Allah's gifts to us, u can't even count them.

HE always gives the best, doesn't He? :)

Bila dah dapat apa yang kita nak (alhamdulillah again), what is supposed to be our next step? Mestila nak bagi Allah yang terbaik kan?

Hmm...macam mana nak wat cmtu?

Use what He has given you to do good deeds and to achieve our goal-KI !

Adakah potassium iodide ? hehe...

Khalifah dan ahli A'bid la kan :)