u and i both, we know it

don't we?

lets stop.

stop and istighfar

for what we've done wrong.

we know its wrong, but yet we're still doing it.

u n i, we both know it.

between seronok and yg haq,

i choose haq.

let's not befriend the enemy.

our connection

out of all the people who have left some kind of traces in my life, urs were the one that stood out the most.
and until now, still is.

u don't need to be told if i'm sad.
i'm crying n u already know it.
even wen ur on the other side of the universe.
distance never seems to be the problem.

i know now that wherever i go, i'm still in ur mind.
u just won't say it out loud, will u ?
but all dat matters that I say it to u, so that u know
I always love you.

I never get tired of that.
even i don't get a reply, i know ur heart is shouting it out.

DI memang xlyk utk dpt dia,
but I'm glad that Allah gives her to me.

Random

"Awk gagah. Semua org gagah!"

words that are enough to make me retrace my step back.

And to wake up with Allah in mind (which is a really really hard thing to do >.< shame on me) has made my whole day seems full of colours.

I dunno why, but today seems different from every other day. There was no sad feeling, no intention of holding a grudge to anyone, and I laughed a lot ( i had to istighfar a lot too.)

Watching my friends from where I sit in class, watching them paying attention, watching them giving food secretly to the person next to them, trying to help each other stay awake through the lesson, they are all wonderful wonderful pictures.

As I was doing my work on my laptop, I saw writings on my desk which I did not recall having seen it before.

 Go nabila!

Go nabila!

Go nabila! :)

haha.. words from a friend does make you feel much better. words from Him, apatah lagi :)

The joy He gives me by having a good day today. 

your smile

Sungguh, orang-orang yang beriman dan mengerjakan kebajikan, kelak (Allah) Yang Maha Pengasih akan menanamkan rasa kasih sayang (dalam hati mereka)

(19:96)

Its true. Allah's love has no boundaries. even for those who forgets Him, who constantly ignore His signs around them.

He still gives me something I need the most. Not just one, or two, but a whole bunch of them.

Its funny how I can easily open my arms to hug someone who I never knew before, let alone saw them.

But His love shown through their love towards me, has made me who I am today. 

All those countless times I crawled back to my jahiliyah, they grabbed me so tight, as if they would never let me go.

Subhanallah, one of the thing that made me strong to face the uncertainties of the future is our love. Whenever I saw the video on hadith of the sahabah Umar Al-Khattab r.a where he said about the human resources.

I'm scared I couldn't become like Abu Ubaidah r.a or the other sahabah, whom when you throw them anywhere on this Earth, they will be able to take care of the religion.

they will be fine, because Islam is engraved in their hearts.

But I know, at least I have friends who are of the likes of the sahabah. their strength is my strength. which comes from Him. 

Insha Allah if He gives me the opportunity, i will give my best. because i know i'm never alone on this journey. 

though action speaks louder than words. 

Hati yang kering kontang

hav u ever done something, but without any excitement in doing it?
hmmm...DI sekarang mngalami situasi sebegini. semangat je bila jumpa org tu, org nie. cerita x penah habis. pastu, pegi bilik kawan tu, kawan nie.
suka.
but when everyone else is busy getting themselves closer to Him, where am I?
I was there too, doing what everyone else was doing.
solat, evrything that should have made me feel like He is with me. whom I can tell everything to, whom I can go to whenever evrybody else is not around for me.
sadly, hati nie rasa kering. mcm kena kemarau. langsung x feel connection. dah la kalau nak contact Dia, xperlu pon byr pape ke. free of charge but then, we somehow chose someone else other than Him.
bila buat sesuatu yg xde feel, sangat3 lah x best.

dulu, sblum pindah bilik n jauh drpd akhawat2, selalu je g mkn sorg2 kt ds, g kelas ke. nearly evrything i did by myself. but it made me feel I have Him with me. I always took the time to share with Him. "Takpe, org lain xde, aku ada Dia." so, cakap je la pape pun, I know He's listening.
rindu.

bila dah ada ramai kwn2 di sisi, DI dah xnmpak Dia. sdgkn yang xpenah tidur adalah Dia and He who watches over us Day and Night.
Teringat hari nak balik kmb aritu, naik bas. mlm. apa2 je boleh jadi. tapi xtau kenapa, hati rsa xsdp. ditambah lagi dgn mother ckp, "asl la x balik ngn flight.." hoho...apa lagi, hati dh lain macam. is something going to happen? tp boleh pulak ats bas tido dr awl perjalanan smpai la putrajaya, alhamdulillah. Boleh je Allah nak bg dugaan apa2 but instead, He kept me safe all the way sampai mcm x pecaya dh safely arrived. mmg Hebat ah Allah. The Best. syukur!

It is Him that has been with me from the beginning until now. and always will. when everyone else forgets me, He still sends His love in evry way u can think of.
Dia sangat3 rindu kita. DI sangat3 rindu Dia.
hmm...bila setiap kali bgn tido, nak igt Dia. no one else. nak say Thank You for giving me another chance to correct what i hav done wrong. n nak bgn sambil senyum :)

Pray that my heart will always melt when I remember Him and read His love letters...

...

Ok. Hanya Tuhan shj yg tahu hati ni mcm mna skrg.

I cannot survive without You.
That I know.
Please 3x o heart, have a strong faith in Him.
He knows everything.

Pengalaman waktu cuti

During kulsem after maghrib today, each of us had to share one stories about our holiday. Sharing2 la kirany. most of us talked about how great it was spending time wid parents and how important they are in our lives. some shared on how sad it was during the holidays because of how much time they've wasted on useless things (don't we always =.=) and so on.
but there was one person who shared sumthing which happened to her with her siblings that had touched me the most and i thought dat it has to be shared here :)
Cerita dia simple. dia orang perak so tambah dengan slang dia yg mcm org kedah menjadikan story dia sgt interesting utk ddengar.
She started her sharing sumthing like dis:
Pada suatu hari, semasa saya tengah duduk dgn dua orang adik sy di ruang tamu. tiba2 rasa nak share satu ayat  yang Allah kata:

Jika kamu meminjamkan kepada Allah dengan pinjaman yang baik, nescaya Dia melipatgandakan (balasan) untukmu dan mengampuni kamu. Dan Allah Maha Mensyukuri, maha Penyantun.

(64:17)

Dia guna analogi pen.

Katakanlah DI ada satu pen chumel. Pastu DI pnjamkn pen chumel tu dkt sorg kawan bernama Mina. Bila DI nak guna balik, DI x mintak terus cm kita normally mintak kt org, tp DI akn kata: boleh tak kalau DI nak pinjam pen chumel tu?

Comel x comel :) Allah laaaggiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii la sweet. Dah la kita hidup nie pun Dia yang bg kita pinjam sume benda, termasuk la badan nie. The air itself, is actually borrowed. We are borrowing everything from Him. tapi, kita tak sedar kan? buat mcm harta sendiri ad la. tangan yg Dia punya nie, kita guna utk buat benda2 yg xperlu n xpatut pun kita buat. mata jgn cakap la kn.

yang paling tersentuh bila kawan DI share psl adik2 dia yg tgh dengar dia citer tu. yg tua sikit tu, air mata dia boleh bergenang. maksudnya, bila Allah nak bagi hati kita tersentuh, akn lembut la hati tu xkira lelaki or perempuan. EVen org yg nampak je keras, tp its never impossible for him or her to shed a tear when He touches their hearts with His words :)

Imagine, brapa byk lagi kat luar sana yg x berkesempatan nak dengar ayat2 Allah. and kita yang dah dgr nie, yg inshaAllah tengah cuba sedaya upaya nak beriman dgn ayat2 Dia, we hav dat responsibility untuk sampaikan.

teringin jugak nak bagi adk2 DI sendiri rasa cmtu. myb DI ni xpndai nak cakap2. tp setiap kelemahan sptutny perlu diatasi. at least, try approach ngn cara lain. mana tau, Allah bukakn hati diorg nk dengar. belom cuba belom tahu.

Rasulullah s.a.w pernah bersabda: sampaikan walaupun satu ayat.

Wahh...powerful kan ayat2 Allah. share satu ayat je, boleh membuatkn ssorg tu sebak sbb apa yang Allah buat untuk kita, semuanya mcm melebihkn2kan hamba2 Dia yang serba kekurangan dsbbkn dosa2 yang tak tertanggung byknya. 

Kita bagi satu. Allah balas lebih. 

Who are we to say that Allah is not fair? He is wayyyy more than fair. :')