saya bangga

riak ke kalau kita bangga dgn diri sendiri?
kalau bangga dgn Islam mcm mana? of course there's a word for it.
Adakah anda IZZAH dgn Islam yg anda bawa skg nie? walau di mana jua anda berada? do people see Islam in you? How do YOU potray Islam to them?

takut kan kalau disebabkan kita, Islam tu dipandang serong. apa yang kita dah buat sebenarnya?
Ya Allah, seriously, living for a few weeks dah kt sini memang terasa benda tue. rasa yang "kau kena tunjuk Islam nie hebat. kata syumul. so make it syumul!" agak terasa berat disitu err..

first couple of days at medic school, serius, mmg terasa asing. kata nak jadi ghuraba. amek kau. but yeah, i felt it. sebab dah ad cop kat tudung en..hehe. but its alright. i'm proud of it. at least my hair won't dry fast (theory sendiri di situ)
imagine ure in a new school, don't know anyone there apart from a person who was also new. everyone has their own gang, and u just didn't seem to fit in into any of that group. sedih kan perasaan tu. rasa cm lonely nyeeee kt dunia nie. rasanya semua org pernah melalui benda ni. whether in ur primary or secondary or even when u enrolled into a college. nobody knows u and whats worst, nobody even seems to care.

tapi kan, Allah tu sgt lah baik. and even though there was a feeling, it was something that came up in my mind only for a split second that feeling, rasa mcm "aku ni different, sbb tu org treat aku different. why does it have to be me? nie mesti pasal tudung"(even u know this stuff is basic, tapi still xterlepas dr bisikan syaitan untuk pikir mcm tu), Allah bagi Harun kt DI to say that 'ure not alone.'
dannnn hari tu ada la sorg kawan yg dduk kt England nie, my best friend, tiba2 tulis kt DI :

So now you're in Belfast, I was thinking of trying to visit you at Easter :) Xmas would be too expensive :( xx

 nak katanya, even though people around u looked down at you (well, at least I think they do by their faces) or doesn't wanna talk to you, ad je manusia2 yg Allah letak kat serata dunia yang masih ada untuk comfortkan kita. yang kita tak terpikir pon ingat lagi kt kita. dis friend i haven't seen her in nearly 7 years :) ad je yang sanggup bersusah payah untuk kita.

and to remind you n i, kalau bukan kerana Allah yang hantarkn diorg untuk kita, who else? dan Dia xbuat semua tue kalau Dia nak kita hidup kt bumi Allah nie sorg2..

atas tu just selingan :) the main point is that
kenapa org sekeliling pandang kita cmtu in the first place? maybe we don't hav d chance yet to show them we're just as good as them in every way tapi Allah pilih kita untuk jadi Muslim, untuk bawa Islam kat tempat orang. patutke kita rasa "tudung nie ke yang problemo"

weh, istighfar.

kita sendiri yg tanam fikiran cmtu kt diri sendiri! *menangis*

Allah bagi nikmat kepandaian, nikmat kesenangan dapat duit mara yg banyak etc2 so sekarang nie up to us on how do we use the nikmat so that Islam tu dipandang tinggi :) Islam is rising and what are our contribution so far? nak dduk dkt sideline je ke and once Islam is at the top baru nk rush in masuk dalam Islam secara total? 

ps: ad ayat nie DI nak share tapi tu lah, mayb Allah xbg DI jumpa sbb nk reflect dh lama mana DI xtgk ayat2 Dia..sedih. berkaitan dgn atas nie so kalau sape2 tau, mohon share :)