smaller things

jiwa yang besar.
bukan senang nak bertukar menjadi seorg yg extraordinary. He knows how each of us had struggled with all the jahiliyyah pulling us back, nak tarik balik masuk dalam lumpur.
bukan sehari dua nak berubah, nak berusaha untuk berubah apatah lagi.
and once u are on the right track, there are bound to be those unwelcomed 'whispers' trying to pull you.
bukan senang nak kekal. true, Allah really choose those who are worth it.
To stand where I am now, Allah has tested me with so many things.
and Allah will continue to test us.

Sometimes, not even with the big things.
Up until now, I have been taught to always look at the bigger picture. mana main tengok benda2 kecik. Even my goals in life are big.
and I expected that in tarbiyyah too. Although I was literally crawling, crying, begging not to be turned back into what I was before, alhamdulillah with Allah's help I got through. but I am not saying I am better now. I am still trying, we all are.

and now Allah tests us with one of those tiny little things, dah tak tahu macam mana nak handle. sebab always looking at the bigger picture eh?

kata-kata murabbi : kalau bende sekecil nie pun kita tak boleh nak work things out, macam mana kita nak expect tarbiyyah adik2 berkembang? kalau kita tak boleh nak tolerate dgn each other, macam mana kita nak expect adik2 ikut kita?

Betul. sangat betul.

bigger things in life and akhirah goes parallel with smaller things along the way. 

kalau perasaan dan perangai kita tak boleh dikorbankan, macam mana dakwah nak berkembang?
aiseh, enti pun tahu ana bukan seorang yang expressive.
Bukan seorang yg pandai berkata-kata.
apatah lagi yang suka meluahkan perasaan.